BLEACHED
I'm having another short working week this week... *YEAY!!* we still can't settle on some stuff for Eshan's bday this weekend.. but wat the heck.. hopefully, it will all come together this weekend!.... :)

i went to treat my hair over the weekend.... but my real intention was i wanted to change my curls... but my hairdresser told me not to do anything except cut, treat & highlight.. so, oklor... i trusted him and he did his thang.. and voila! i came out with bleached, streak hair! :( well, he didn't tell me that it was bleached but it obviously looked bleached!... brrr... i hope it won't spoil my already spoilt hair...

while typing out this entry, this guy juz popped over demanding for something for some biggie and fuck!.. when i said demanding he really demanded!.... how blardy rude!... u dun ask someone rudely when u're the one in need k?!... arse hole!.... and this is not the first time he's stepped on my toes...

oh!... btw, i did some egg tarts for Yanti yesterday and it didn't turn out as nice as the first time she had it.. even Dearest commented that my egg tart yest was not as sweet... and after some time, i think i finally know why!... i think it's the butter (because tat's the only difference in the making of yesterday's tarts)!!... i used a more expensive butter yest.. and hmmm... prolly need to switch back to the cheaper brand B/u/t/t/e/r/c/u/p which i usually use to do my egg tarts... i'll go try it out and confirm this later..

anyways, i'm sorry yanti tat the egg tarts didn't turn out as well as u hoped!.... jgn serik eh... and thanks for your support! :)

THE MILESTONE I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR!
we saw him taking 3 cautious baby steps last nite!... oh my!!... my baby's learning to let go albeit cautiously!.... and off we went in search of that squeaking shoes!!... annnddd..... whaddya know?... we got a squeaking Barney sandals - juz on time for his Barney-inspired bday theme!... :)

and once he put it on and hear the squeaking sound it made, he wanna walk, walk, walk - holding our hands of course!... ;) so baby, will u be walking the day you turn 1???..... mama hope so!... ameen...

speaking of Eshan's bday party, i'm pretty stressed out coz the BBQ pit area is pretty small!... thank god for the bigger open space.. butttt still, the chalet's fully booked tat day.. so, worst case scenario, there'll be A LOT OF ppl crowding the BBQ pits!... we're looking for foldable tables and plastic chairs - anyone can loan us for free, plsssss??? and i wanna hang some balloons but Dearest said, there's no space and there's no need for 1!.. but i wanna hang at least a Barney balloon somewhere!!!.... urrrrgh!.... how can there be a bday party without balloons, ait??...

anyways, due to the atrocious pile of work i've gotta do, pic have to wait... :( can't wait to show you guys a pix of Eshan with his curls shaven off!.. yup!... my son's got no curls at the moment! ;) and we're lurving it!.. ahahhahaa....

WE ARE 2!!...
yes.. it's been a while, hasn't it?!... and whaddya know??... we're 2!!... :) and Eshan's turning 1 in a week's time!.... my gosh!!...

Dearest,
i had the best 2years with you in all of our 9yrs together..
i hope we'll be in bliss forever, till death do us part..
you've given us nothing but the best you can possibly offer and i'm grateful that i've got a husband like you! ;)
I LOVE U, BABY!!!!!!.......
mmmuaaaah!!!

SWARMED & STRESSED!
I've 4 more weeks to Eshan's bday bash and i still haven't sorted my frosting issue and most important of all, Eshan's purple clothes for the day!!... :(

we went round Raffles City on Sat and found zilch purple tops for Eshan!!!.... gosh!.... are boys boring creatures that retailers cannot think up of other colours other than blue, navy blue n green tops for boys?!... urrrgh!!....

now, i cannot have my son spot on a blue top for his own Barney-inspired theme bday and expect everyone else to turn up in purple!... so, either we die-die go all out getting him a purple top or change themes!... (which i am oh-so reluctant to!)

did i also mention that my buddy's away and i'm freakin busy at work rite now?!... yes.. i must've... i'm swarmed!!... i'm blardy, freakin swarmed with work - i dun even know where to start!.. :(

OF BEING A PENGAPIT & A FOOTBALLER
i'm telling ya.. i'm a busy, busy bee rite now!... gosh.. i'm barely breathing!!... my buddy's away for her honeymoon and suddenly, i've got a whole load of things on my plate!.. :( and i soooo hate it... but i have to contact her to get some info but she's currently uncontactable!... urrrghh!!!!... :(

anyways, sunday was a packed, packed, packed weekend!.... first up was gg to Akid's Cukur Rambut.. it's almost like a wedding invite coz the function was from 11am to 5pm and it was held under the void-deck!.. ahhahaha....

Eshan was his right pengapit and Adam was supposed to be on his left but Adam and parents were nowhere in sight!!!... where were u guys?!.... so we took a picture of the SP Gang '01 without them... *baaaah!!*

al-hamdulillah, Eshan do like kids!.. i think he lurves ppl of his age around.. hahaha... yeah!.. i think some of u may be saying it's time for me to have another one.. well, this year's a rest!.. next yr, insya-allah factory reopens itself, eh?.. hehehhee...

From the East, we headed to the West to see Kak Yani.. she's at home recuperating from her freak accident with the cows in Laos.. seeing her stitched leg and (i didn't want to see) arms, god forbid i get myself involved in such an accident!!.. thank god for travel insurance.. she gets one of the best medical attention at Thailand albeit a day later!... gosh!!.. i wonder how she went thru the pain for a full day before real medical attention was given!!.... PAAAIIINNNN siah!!...

From the West, we went to the centre to "support" Dearest and his soccer team... Eshan also wants to be a footballer... so he gave me his bestest pose....

amacam? ada tokoh tak??.. ahhahaha....

oh!.. he now knows how to clap his hands!.. yeay!!! :) he can stand for more than 5s, he's eating pasta and he cries everytime he wakes up on time to see us leaving work!... (I'm not sure if i should "celebrate" the latter though!!) but till date, he still haven't hold his own bottle for feeding!!!... urrrgh!!.... tat is blardy irritating!!!!..... can someone tell me how i can train him to hold his bottle, plsssss?!!!......

MY FIRST FROSTING..
FAILED!!... :(

In that 4 and a quarter days i was at home, i managed to try doing Frosted Vanilla Cupcake. Found the vanilla cupcake recipe thru Martha Stewart's webbie but the recipe found there gave very funny instructions!... but niways, it was nice... but the frosting i took from Joy of Baking and it was ULTRA sweet!... and it's not hard enuff!!.. :( on hindsight, i should've followed the instructions from MS for the frosting!... gaaaah!!

i've got another 6 more weekends to find the perfect frosting before Eshan's bday!... sooooo readers, if u have any tried and tested, less sweet and hard (but not hard like a rock) frosting, plsssss share them with me!... :) thank u!

POO-H!...
Thank god for make-up!... i'm able to conceal my dark circles and very dull complexion this morning!... i was out of action the past 4 and a quarter days!... i was called up on wed pm by the maid to come home coz Eshan was having a fever and crying non-stop!...

on the way home, i told her to put the fever patch on.. by the time i reached home, his fever somewhat subsided but the back of his neck, palms and feet were HOT!!... so i monitored and at nite time, his temp was officially within the normal range. But not convinced, i had to take a day off to monitor him further juz in case!...

the next day at 12nn, he pooed - sooooo much poo in that teensy weensy diapers of his!... but he was OK the rest of the pm... not cranky watsover!... but come evening, he started poo-ing every 3-4 hrs... on Fri morning, i woke up to go to work and Eshan woke up the same time and POOed on our bed!!... :( haiz.. imagine the rude morning shock we had!... sent him straight to the doc but was only given some powdery form to soothe his tummy ache!

on the way to the clinic..

all day fri and sat, he spilled poo on us!... poor boy.. his down there must be hurting and he's developed some sort of phobia with the bathroom coz everytime he poos, i bring him there to clean and he cries!...

now, everyone says his face has shrunk and he's not spotting that mini paus no more... :( but dun care lah.. as long as he's hydrated.. tat's all that matters... his mini paus can be developed over time... hahahha....

the only way to make him quiet is to switch on Barney!

oh!!.. and this morning, he pooed BIG TIME!!.. at 3am, he woke up with a muffle and i heard him poo-ing... later he cried.. and when i picked him up, there was poo all over his body!!... jialat lor!!... this is wat parents have to go thru for their babies!!...

so he's still poo-ing... i juz hope tat the poo-ing will stop soon and he's back to our smiley, lovable Eshan.. he's soooo cranky that he doesn't want anyone that he dun recognise anymore! :( i very the sedih tau!!....

A PACKED HOLIDAY!
it was a pretty traditional CNY this yr - with us going for a picnic (apparently, it's a tradition for the Malays to go for picnic on CNY hols!) to lion dance and lo-hei in 2 separate Chinese houses!...

First up was a picnic with the in-laws @ Sentosa... the last we went for a family picnic was eons ago... the past few yrs had always been with Dearest only.. once we went picnic with Rosma & Ms Gems.. so, imagine my shock when the in-laws brought a whole load of food and the mat and wat-nots - a real picnic lah dey!... hahahhaa...

it was soooo blardy crowded with peeps!!.... NEVER in my entire life will i bring my family out for a picnic on CNY again!!.. we were pretty excited to bring Eshan to the man-made baby pool tat Ms Gems recommended but he slept once we found a spot!... aiyoh!.. so had to wait a bit before he gets in on the fun too!...

imagine his eagerness seeing the pool! kept looking towards the pool while we wait for Dearest to gulp down his lunch!.. :)

the next day we went for the ritual CNY visiting... for the first time, Aunty Shirley called in a lion dance and we also met the Jap lady who charges US$300- US$400 per hair cut in NY!... supposedly she's tat good!.. if only i have the money, i would let her cut my hair!

Eshan got to see the dancing lions!.. and he didn't even let out a yelp!.. he was juz gaping at the lions!.. ahhahaa... must be quite a sight!!... :)

two houses after, mummy & daddy participated in a lo-hei session with their colleague's family!... mummy said she wanted all the good luck and tried to lift her stuff high..

howell!.. wateva makes them happy!... ahhahaha.... All day tat day, Eshan lets anyone carry him around.. scary betul!.. tup2 hilang anak aku!!... *choy!!* anyways, for the all the pix taken tat 2 days, they're here!

And after all that happening activities the past 2 days, Eshan woke up in a slight daze on Sat!

Anyways, we also attended Syidzz and Faisal's wedding - at LAST!!!.... we get to see them married!... :) Congrats u both!....

Yest we visited Nyai in hospital (yes! she went back in again! :( ) thank god!.. she looked fresher and happier!... unlike the past mth at home where she was juz lying down and in no mood to talk cock and eat properly!... hopefully, the scope tis morning will find the root cause of her anaemic state and they treat her accordingly!...

aaaah... the past 4 days had been a bliss for me... at home with my son - watching Barney and seeing him grow up!.. he's now able to stand for 2s on the bed and walk very quickly pushing that Fisher Price car... so i really cannot wait for him to start walking!!... how exciting!!

getting to work today was a chore!... a real chore!... i dun really want to leave my baby behind!... missing him like crazy now!! :( back to work!!!

GONG XI! GONG XI!
It's a beautiful day!... the sky is blue and the roads are clear and the office is half empty!.. yeay!!....

tml is a holiday but i'll have to slog my ass off today first... but it's ok!... i'm doing wat i like anyways!... hehehe.... hopefully eshan won't be too "needy" or cranky coz he's having a running nose... i hope it doesn't get worst within the next 2 days coz i would assume most clinics would be closed within the next 2 days!... aaaaagh!!....

wokies ppl!... to my Chinese friends and readers - GONG XI FA CAI!!.... and thank U for the much needed long holiday! ;) to my non-Chinese friends and readers, enjoy the holiday ppl!!! the next one is 6wks away!... *bummer!*

BDAYS CELEBRATIONS!
The weekend was quite well-spent... went for not one but 2 celebrations on Sat... first up was my niece's bday celebration....

Happy First BDAY NurFa!!... ;) her mom hates it when we call her tat.. but errrm, it seems quite nice leh... hehehe... she was in a good mood that day.. she's ok with us carrying her and she managed to smile a bit when we talked to her.. other days, she's a grumpy lil' one!... really. tak bedek!...

Next up was bday celebrations with the mommies!... we have 5 minus 2 Jan babies (Ikmal & Nazlin couldn't make it!) and 1 Dec babe (tat's moi!).. i received my Donna Hay Modern Classics Bk 2 (at last!!).... and i lurve it!!... gorgeous, tempting pix and easy enuff recipes to do!... i cannot wait!!!... :D *rubs hands in glee* thanks girls!!!!

my son & Ms Gems not supposed to be in the pic.. but Naqeeb was in cranky mode coz of his running nose (poor boy..) and Eshan was not warmed up with the peeps around him.. oh!.. and i also juz know that my son has this thing abt crowds.. when we reach NurFa's bday party, i got my aunt to hold him first while i pass the big present i got for NurFa to An... when Eshan looked around the crowded living rm and finds that i wasn't the one holding him, he cried... alamak!... susah babe gini..

anyways, the 2006 babies minus Ikmal convened at Rosma's hse that Sat... and boys! was it difficult to get the 3 of u to sit quietly!...

tat's y there were no nice, clear shots of the boys!... these were the best amg the lot tat i took!.. :( nvm, next time we try again eh... waaah... come to think of it, come education milestones - going into P1, streaming, PSLE, O levels - at least i dun have to go thru it alone.. my frenz will be there to go thru it together! ;)

oh!.. i do need help!... Eshan's curls are getting out of hand!.. mummy asked me to cut it but i can't bear to coz it does look cute on him!.. hahahha.. but when he's all sweaty, it looks soooo all over the place!

btw, update on Kak Yani - she looks in high spirit though there were metal bits sticking out from her arms and wat nots... aiyoh!.. it looks pretty painful but she's smiling and can even do a peace sign to the camera for Daddy!.. so, i think either she's really not in pain (one tough cookie she is!) or the drugs are working their way to numb her pain... either way, i was in pain looking at her pix!!.... yah!.. daddy took them to show me how painful it is to have an accident when u're a pillion on a bike!... hmmm.. yah!.. i know... but i dun enjoy long rides thru kampong streets and wat nots... i'm not a toughie!... i'm a pampered brat like tat!.. hehehe... but insya-allah, Dearest will ride safely with me as his "second eyes" on the streets of SG!!

anyways, to Kak Yani & Isham, dun think can visit you at the hospital since we cannot bring Eshan to the hospital... will prolly visit u when u're back home... let us know once back, k?!... take care!!!

COW?!
i receive some bad news from Mummy... she told me that Kak Yani got involved in an accident in Laos. Apparently, they were trying to avoid a COW!... yes!... u read it right - a COW!... my oh my!...

Mummy is still unsure of details - she said something like she got thrown off the bike - wah! reminded me of when I got thrown off the bike one time!.... *shudders* dear god, i do hope she's ok.... she's on the way back and will be admitted to SGH..

wags finger at Isham - tak nampak ke itu lembu??....

TGIF!
at last!.. it's Friday!.... a few more days to go before the 4-day rest next week!... yippee!!..... i really cannot wait for tat!.... :)

but before i go for that 4-day rest, i need to slog out a day to do my egg tarts and marble cake since i took orders for CNY!... ;) my first order for my marble cake.. hmmm... i hope it turns out A-OK!....

oh!... we've already decided on a date for the retreat.. but there's still some issues to be ironed out before we can confirm it.. haaaizzz... y do i have to do this?.... i really dun like organising such stuff!... :(

CAN I SCREAM?!

it's irritating when u have to do something and ppl are opposing it and they expect u to please them!... FUCK!... if u dun want this and that, y dun u do it then?!.... u want??

MARBLE CAKE, ANYONE?

i did this tri-colour marble cake though!.. I tried doing marble cake a long time ago.... can't remember whose recipe i used also... since i feel like doing marble cake and went in search for a recipe and found this!

my colleagues said it's nice - i hope it's not out of courtesy!.. ahahhaa.. they said that it's not too sweet but i need to cut it thicker!.. hahaha... errr... pardon my thin pieces.. coz i really dunno how to cut a cake!.. i'm very horrible at that!... personally, i do like it.. it's very soft and i can actually taste the choc!... but next time, i'll use real choc instead of cocoa powder...

now, wat can i do this weekend for our gatherings? new recipe or the tried and tested ones??

over the weekend, i gave Eshan a taste of Durian and he lurves it!!!.... he wants more even after giving him 6 pinches.. but no more lah... cannot give him too much...

Eshan is also starting to try to stand.. he will bravely let got for a second and hold on the stationary object in front of him before letting go again for another second!.. so, i'm hoping that he can start standing by 10.5mths and then i can train him to walk so that he can safely start walking by his 1st bday!! ;)

I juz msged Izy abt how fast time flies... before you know it, our darlings are turning 1!... my gosh!.. i really dunno how tat happened?!... :( but it's weird how much i want him to start walking and talking but at the same time, i also dun want him to grow up tat fast!.. HAH!....

i guess for now, i juz have to enjoy these moments when he

picks up a good habit of reading..

sits on the big boy's toys inquisitively touching this and that..

is exploring every lil' thing and cheekily bites on them knowing full well we dun like it..

but most of all, i love it when he gives me his big, wide smile with eyes squinting!

even if that means, he salivates and smells all over!..

FRUST!
i always jinx my fav grp chance of winning the Amazing Race!.. :( first it was Nate and Jen.. i know they fought a lot.. but i still find them cute coz there are times when they do show their affection.... but they got ousted juz before the finals!.... then, last nite, i was rooting for the Father-Daughter duo and i said it out loud.. and who knows?!... they came in SECOND!!... urrrgh!!....

this morning, we had a super-duper loooong meeting... i actually juz came back from it!... aaaahh!!!... the blardy long minutes i have to write later!!..... :( but that's not the point!.. the point is, i'm frust that my boss dun seem to be supportive of something that i deem impt for the morale boosting of our staff... hmph!

and then, i get extremely frustrated with a certain old foggie here who can't seem to understand wat i want!!!... which part of "the whole list of ..." dun you understand?!... and to think that i requested for it in verbal and written form!!!... is it my English u dun understand or r u juz plain dumb?!..... fuck!!


oh!... and it was decided that we may go for a retreat... 1 nite or 2 nites?!... freak!... k'm gonna miss my son! and i'm sooooo not into retreats if it's juz gonna be abt work, work and MORE WORK!!! so yes!... as u can see, i'm not sooooo in a good mood now... :<

DESPERATE!
My bro bought Desperate Housewife Season 4 - claimed to be complete but it only has 9 episodes!!... is it really complete?!!!... i DUN think so lor!!..... but when i googled it earlier, it got me to ABC website and yup!.. there's only 9 episodes... hmmm..... the ending is sooooooo menggeramkan!!...

anyways, we juz had this staff engagement survey findings briefing and boy!... it's not looking all too good!.... hopefully, with the findings, there's better remuneration package, benefits and wat nots for us all!... i can't wait!! ;)

BABY FLOAT
I receive this video mail from a classmate and boy!... i felt sooooo drowned!... this baby soooo kesian lor... really!.... i think he was crying... ya ampun!!....

but on the other hand, the fact that he can turn himself to float is amazing!!.... WOW!... how the hell did they train him siah??... i also WAAANNT!!..... hahahhaa... but i feel that my babe is toooo young to go through this arduous process of learning to swim... i'll coach him myself when the time is ripe! ;)

anyways, American Idol is on... the first 2 episodes proved to be a disappointment!... it's getting boring-er and irritating by the season.. like Dearest said, if only the real talented + those who genuinely think they're talented minus the ones that juz wanna be irritating and have that 30s of fame on tv had lined up, the que would be a quarter of what it is now... wah lau eh!... anyways, it's a waste of 2hrs of time-slot... but i cannot wait for the real deal though!!.... it's been a while since i last see a handsome singer.. so i hope there is one that i can go GA-GA over this yr!... ahaks!

TRIP CANCELLED?!
haiyah!... soooo sad!!..... Naz decided not to go for the trip... so we can't possibly go with ZamAni's family coz we're all inexperienced drivers... hmmm... sungguh sedih!... :(

perhaps it's a blessing in disguise... it's a sign to use the $$ on my son's bday!.. ahhahaha... bleh gitu?!.... *excuses! excuses!*.... anyways, i think i WILL do a mini bday bash for my son - juz with close family and frenz.. hmmmm...... time to start planning!! ;)

ANOTHER NEW ADDITION..
i was soooo caught up catching up with my old fren that i totally forgot to take pic of her new bundle of joy!!... and even her!!... grrrr... bacin!!...

To Dearest Sarina, CONGRATS girl on the cute lil girl!!.. ;) another girl to the family!.. takpelah.. there's always next time... hahahaha... :p

Anyways, i'm feeling sooo hungry!!... i hope i get to go out to eat real food today!... been eating junk food the past 2 days!... i really do think i'll grow real fat after moving into this new place... wat with my 2 fav fast food outlets juz round the corner!.. hah!...

work is piling.. and tat may explain the hunger pangs!... *excuses*... but yeah!... work is piling and i'm also procastinating doing some things... all i ever think of now is my son... i miss him a lot during the day!... haiz... if only i can be a SAHM or if not, if only this workplace has a childcare centre where i can deposit him - at least i get to see him everyday any time of the day!... urrrgh!!...

i also cannot wait for the upcoming rd trip with the gang.. any suggestions where we can go to in MAS? Nazrin kept suggesting Fraser Hill... i very scared leh.. ahhahhaa... yah.. i'm scared of going up and down the hills... Ms Sinus & family still have not gotten back to us on whether they're joining on this rd trip.. join lah.. join lah... ;)

UP NEVER DOWN..
first it was the taxi fare that infuriated me!... now, we found 1 ERP gantry at - get this! - TPY !!!!!... WAAAAT?!!!.... is that blardy rd leading to town?!.... freaky!.....

i pity the ppl staying there coz now, they really have got no choice but to go thru the gantry every other day... if not, they'd have to make a longer turn to avoid the jam!!.... with the rising taxi fare and the numerous ERP gantries scattered everywhere, no wonder ppl are always late for work!.... kwang.. kwang.. kwang... coz it's not like the buses here are VERY efficient!... no doubt, it is one of the best but if only it could be BETTER like being ON TIME for example!...

can i suggest the following to SBS:-
1. Get more fleet of buses and schedule the buses at regular time slots at peak period. i took the bus to class yesterday and missed the bus and had to wait for a whole 25mins before i get another bus. Apparently, Ms Gems saw 2 of that bus pass her at the same time!.... if it had been scheduled properly, this shouldn't be the case and i may only need to wait half that time to get the bus.

2. The buses to reach designated bus stops on time. After years of traveling the roads of SG, i'm sure SBS can est the time the bus reaches from one point to the other. This links to point 1 - if you schedule the bus timing rite from the start when they leave the interchange, u can display the timing of the bus arrival at that particular bus interchg so that commuters would have a rough est of wat time the bus will come.

3. Train bus drivers to drive at a normal, safe speed. Some drivers drive the bus like it's carrying a dead body inside while some drive like a mad cow forgetting that they're driving a bus load of passengers and that soooo many lives are in their hands! This links to point 2 - if a speed limit is regulated for all bus drivers to follow, buses can definitely turn up at the bus stops on time!

i dunno if these suggestions are feasible... but it's worth a look, dun u think?.... anyways, i dun even know how these all get started in the first place!... i was supposed to blog abt happy stuffs today!.. ahhahahaa.....

we had our last of the last facial practical class yest... it was courtesy of our dearest che-cher Kat... the 3rd was supposed to be our last class but we had a makan session instead... this is the class that i had been with for the past 1.5yrs... there were definitely more than this at the start of the class.. but these stayed faithful till the end... ;)

i guess it's never easy to juggle work, family and class.. me and Win definitely regretted taking up this course but to think that we acquired an extra skill made up for it lah... we only hate taking the exams!... urrrgh!.. i juz hope i pass the facial practical!... i dun wanna retake leh....

and at last, i did Madeleines!!!... it's really freakin nice lah... got the recipe from the girl who paints her kitchen red - again! :) - who got the recipe from Donna Hay Modern Classics 2. I sooooooo have got to get my hands on that book... but actually, have requested Ms Gems to get me that for my bday present but have yet to get it from her... hehehehe... aku tak sabar lah!!.. and yes... i'm pretty shamless but heck!.. they asked!! :D

can't get my hands on the real madeleine shaped containers... so had to make do with seashells. They had the silicone one at Isetan but hell!... it's expensive!!.... oh!... these madeleines are sooo soft and spongy it's like Baulu, the English version.. ahhahaha..... i loike!!... hmmmm.... think i'll try the choc ones tonite... or perhaps a marbled madeleines... ehhehehe.... ;)

ps:- edited the previous post to include pix!!....