FALLING APART!
Nitemares of my wedding came back again yesterday!.... aaaaargh!... i think i will break down soooooon enuff!... Oredi I was rudely awaken by Mr Nice Guy at 8++pm last nite - when i tot i'd have a good, long, rest till this morning to rest my rather aching body - to deliver some pretty good news which btw, i was pretty reluctant to hear.. and after that, i can't sleep anymore thinking of the dilemma that i'm put through!!....
And so, instead of juz lying on the bed, decide to go out and watch some TV instead.. Not less than 5mins, mom started bombarding me with questions on some wedding arrangements, which can i remind her, she foiled - because of her oh-so-brilliant ideas!... if i had known she'd be soooooo damn irritatingly, fickled, i'd have asked her to think abt this like way, way, beforehand!... so that i won't be feeling sooooo, soooooo, irritated and mildly kamchong now!!....
And bcoz of her oh-so-brilliant ideas, which will affect dearie's mood and concentration, i dare not tell him. YET. But this morning, i had to let him in on this lil' change of plans.. when he told me that his family would like to get the kadi that the whole Singapore would like to get their hands on.. and i went "uh-oh!"... another not-so-good news since I would have preferred to get the kadi that will or may be solemnising my line of generations!.. at least, he's not that famous and can make lil' changes should the parents want to make anymore changes to the oredi sooooo many changes done!!!..... urrrrgh!...
today's not such a good day to start off with!.... and it's sooooo much more painful when your dearie's not around to give you a shoulder to cry on!!... i hate it when he's in exam mode!... really!.... i've got a strange feeling, i may be scurrying off to a lil' corner today to cry!.... FUCK!!..
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