Guys, need ur "consultation" services....hehehhee.....niways, here's the problem:
Dearie is offered a different position which is:
1. more challenging
2. more flexible BECAUSE time is not fixed. ie He can be working 12hrs a day, come in late the next day and finish off another work the following day, depending on how well he knows to fix the problem/handle the customer. No matter what, once he reached on-site, he has to make sure problem is fixed.
3. more exposure
4. an "upgrade" to his current position (but not sure if there's a pay rise or anything like that...)
So, the dilemma is this - if he WERE to take up the position offered, he worry that he may not have enough time to juggle his school work (especially!), me and his family. But if he were NOT to take up the position, my worry is he may not be able to get a job after his completion of his degree course. So basically, the only worry or problem is his school work - whether he can catch up with his school work or even go to school because the guys at the department, can be finishing their work as late as 2am!!....so, how to go to school??!...hmmmm......dilemma!dilemma!.....really dunno......stuck with these quotes: Rezeki jgn di tolak & Rezeki ada kat mana2 aje....
Translation: Opportunities shouldn't be rejected & Opportunities is available wherever...
Of course, he kinda make up his mind - he's NOT taking up the position. I've a feeling it's a mistake so that's y I need ur views....wat do u guys think??......
Tuesday, March 30, 2004
Monday, March 29, 2004
Sunday, March 28, 2004
Went out with my 2 favourite girlfriends on Friday! As usual, had a blast!!......so here's a "recap" of what's happened before diggin in!......... :)
From Left: Our dear Peipei, was late!!....couldn't believe that she was slower than me, who was already late and Dr Yap who was a bit handicap for the day bcoz of her muai-thai boxing (is the spelling correct, dear??)....Then, Pei showed off her hair colour which wasn't as red as last week!!...but still red and she look soooo much better now - gave her a bit more vibrant look!...then, Dr Yap took a pic of coy-me!.......*puke!puke!*...hahhahaha.........and lastly, as usual, Dr Yap juz lurrrves to take Pei's picture!!....which Pei simply hates!....hehhehee.....but Pei, we must advertise u lah!......u MUST get urself a boyfriend soooon so that we can prove u how right we are about you!!... :D
MOVING???
Earlier today, a family came to see the house and was juz told that we may be selling the house if the price is good!.......hmmmm....not too sure if i'm thrilled over this piece of news!....wondering where we'll be moving....and the thought of moving!!!! - all the packing and changing of address!.....blah...blah...blah.......brrrrrrrr!!!.........
From Left: Our dear Peipei, was late!!....couldn't believe that she was slower than me, who was already late and Dr Yap who was a bit handicap for the day bcoz of her muai-thai boxing (is the spelling correct, dear??)....Then, Pei showed off her hair colour which wasn't as red as last week!!...but still red and she look soooo much better now - gave her a bit more vibrant look!...then, Dr Yap took a pic of coy-me!.......*puke!puke!*...hahhahaha.........and lastly, as usual, Dr Yap juz lurrrves to take Pei's picture!!....which Pei simply hates!....hehhehee.....but Pei, we must advertise u lah!......u MUST get urself a boyfriend soooon so that we can prove u how right we are about you!!... :D
MOVING???
Earlier today, a family came to see the house and was juz told that we may be selling the house if the price is good!.......hmmmm....not too sure if i'm thrilled over this piece of news!....wondering where we'll be moving....and the thought of moving!!!! - all the packing and changing of address!.....blah...blah...blah.......brrrrrrrr!!!.........
Friday, March 26, 2004
Juz wanna share the following........
*P/S: My apologies to my non-Malay friends....the email was sent in Malay and it's tooo hard to translate it!! :)
Kecantikkan Lelaki
Kecantikan seorang lelaki bukan kepada rupa fizikal tetapi pada murni rohani. Lelaki yang cantik,adalah:-
1) Lelaki yang mampu mengalirkan airmata untuk ingatan
2) Lelaki yang sedia menerima segala teguran
3) Lelaki yang memberi madu,setelah menerima racun
4) Lelaki yang tenang dan lapang dada
5) Lelaki yang baik sangka
6) Lelaki yang tak pernah putus asa
Kecantikan lelaki berdiri di atas kemuliaan hati. Seluruh kecantikan yang ada pada Nabi Muhammad adalah kecantikan yang sempurna seorang lelaki.
Kegagahan Wanita
Kegagahan seorang wanita bukan kepada pejal otot badan,tetapi pada kekuatan perasaan. Perempuan yang gagah,adalah:-
1) Perempuan yang tahan menerima sebuah kehilangan
2) Perempuan yang tidak takut pada kemiskinan
3) Perempuan yang tabah menanggung kerinduan setelah ditinggalkan
4) Perempuan yang tidak meminta-minta agar di penuhi segala keinginan.
Kegagahan perempuan berdiri di atas teguh iman. Seluruh kegagahan yang ada pada Khadijah adalah kegagahan sempurna bagi seorang perempuan.
*P/S: My apologies to my non-Malay friends....the email was sent in Malay and it's tooo hard to translate it!! :)
Kecantikkan Lelaki
Kecantikan seorang lelaki bukan kepada rupa fizikal tetapi pada murni rohani. Lelaki yang cantik,adalah:-
1) Lelaki yang mampu mengalirkan airmata untuk ingatan
2) Lelaki yang sedia menerima segala teguran
3) Lelaki yang memberi madu,setelah menerima racun
4) Lelaki yang tenang dan lapang dada
5) Lelaki yang baik sangka
6) Lelaki yang tak pernah putus asa
Kecantikan lelaki berdiri di atas kemuliaan hati. Seluruh kecantikan yang ada pada Nabi Muhammad adalah kecantikan yang sempurna seorang lelaki.
Kegagahan Wanita
Kegagahan seorang wanita bukan kepada pejal otot badan,tetapi pada kekuatan perasaan. Perempuan yang gagah,adalah:-
1) Perempuan yang tahan menerima sebuah kehilangan
2) Perempuan yang tidak takut pada kemiskinan
3) Perempuan yang tabah menanggung kerinduan setelah ditinggalkan
4) Perempuan yang tidak meminta-minta agar di penuhi segala keinginan.
Kegagahan perempuan berdiri di atas teguh iman. Seluruh kegagahan yang ada pada Khadijah adalah kegagahan sempurna bagi seorang perempuan.
Gift to him for our 5th year anniversary!.... :) A compilation of "our songs" throughout the 5yrs we've been together.....
His favourite pic of me for the day and my favourite pic of him for the day!
Memory Shots of the Day!...
COMPLAINTS!!!
Yesterday's AMI is soooooo freakin irritating. Firstly, though TCS 5 is the BEST for bringing AMI to us....but why in the freakin hell do they have soooooo many ads??!!!........it's like - there's an ad in less than 2mins after airing the show, which, by the way, was after an ad!!!......UUUUGGGGGHHHH!!!!.......I think AMI is also at fault!!!....they should organise the program in such a way that the suspense, won't get too irritating for the viewers!!!.....freaky shit!!
Then, juz when I'm having a "kick" looking at Matt Rodgers (yes, ppl, I kinda like looking at Matt for his cute and smiley face! Macam soooooo sweeeeet like that and the way they portray him to be this sensitive, cuddly, guy!!...hahahhaa....), the Americans had to vote him out!!!!.......haiz............an putting Diana in bottom 3?!?!.....wat was that for?!?!........i wonder when John Stevens would be out.......but if it's really true that they can "mend" the lines like wat happen to Clay last year, then, this year, it could happen again!!...and looking by the looks of it, John Stevens may be in the finals because Simon really likes him!!!......BUT DuuuGGHHH!!.....he's mixing too much with his grandparents!!...he's acting like he's 61 instead of 16!!.......and wat's with that smile, side-view thingie??.....u guys notice that smile??!!........BOOOOO!!!
Thursday, March 25, 2004
HAPPY 5th YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO emiliAduka!!
It's our 5thyr anniversary today!!......I can't believe time flies sooooo fast!....5yrs together and sooooo much has happened!!.... good and bad ones...without these good and bad experiences together, we won't be who and what we are today...
Thank you dear for your love, patience and understanding....love u with all my heart and will do so till end of time....insya-allah.......MMMMuUUUUaaaAAACCcccKS!
Monday, March 22, 2004
MORE SCARY STORIES....
The makcik at the office told me abt how she kena robbed too at JB Carrefoure!!!.......This is turning into an everyday event eh??......aiyoH!!!......She went to Carrefoure and parked her car there.....the next thing, when she come back, her window car was smashed and her bag containing her books and some kitab (because she just came back from a religious class) plus her document wallet was missing!!.....and the bag was not even a handbag mind u!!.....it was only a document bag; some kind of a paper bag....haiz....ape nak jadi??!!.......
And, the police there is "amazingly" helpful!!!....she was asked to go from one police post, to another, to another and then back to where she started!!.....Wat in the world is this?!?!!....my goodness!!!.......in the end, after being sarcastic to the policeman there, they got on getting a statement from her and only completed an hour later - Y??....bcoz they were busy chatting and yakking away after maybe writing one or two sentences!!!........want to kena bash up is it??!!........cibai-kiah!!...
Even one of dearie's relatives (along the extended line) got the same thing!!.....their car was smashed and wateva's inside was taken!!.......it's dreadful!!!....The makcik was told later that sometimes, these ppl (the policemen) need to be "bribed"!! They may have gotten hold or will get hold of your passport or things like that but will only give it to you if you give them $$!!....well, i'd rather not give!!.....wat kind of a policeman are u if we can't even trust u??!!....I really wonder wat they were taught when they go to their police academy (if they ever have one!!) or wherever lah in the process of being a policeman!!!......it's soooo infuriating thinking abt it!!..........Hopefully, with BN's ruling of condemning bribery; and this being top on their list, it'll help matters somewhat.......we'll see!!!!
XXXXX Rated!!
After seeing this, I laughed soooo hard!!...Thanks Zaidah for emailing this!!....hahahahha.........
The makcik at the office told me abt how she kena robbed too at JB Carrefoure!!!.......This is turning into an everyday event eh??......aiyoH!!!......She went to Carrefoure and parked her car there.....the next thing, when she come back, her window car was smashed and her bag containing her books and some kitab (because she just came back from a religious class) plus her document wallet was missing!!.....and the bag was not even a handbag mind u!!.....it was only a document bag; some kind of a paper bag....haiz....ape nak jadi??!!.......
And, the police there is "amazingly" helpful!!!....she was asked to go from one police post, to another, to another and then back to where she started!!.....Wat in the world is this?!?!!....my goodness!!!.......in the end, after being sarcastic to the policeman there, they got on getting a statement from her and only completed an hour later - Y??....bcoz they were busy chatting and yakking away after maybe writing one or two sentences!!!........want to kena bash up is it??!!........cibai-kiah!!...
Even one of dearie's relatives (along the extended line) got the same thing!!.....their car was smashed and wateva's inside was taken!!.......it's dreadful!!!....The makcik was told later that sometimes, these ppl (the policemen) need to be "bribed"!! They may have gotten hold or will get hold of your passport or things like that but will only give it to you if you give them $$!!....well, i'd rather not give!!.....wat kind of a policeman are u if we can't even trust u??!!....I really wonder wat they were taught when they go to their police academy (if they ever have one!!) or wherever lah in the process of being a policeman!!!......it's soooo infuriating thinking abt it!!..........Hopefully, with BN's ruling of condemning bribery; and this being top on their list, it'll help matters somewhat.......we'll see!!!!
XXXXX Rated!!
After seeing this, I laughed soooo hard!!...Thanks Zaidah for emailing this!!....hahahahha.........
Sunday, March 21, 2004
HAPPY ENDING!
Yesterday was the official "closing" for Sunday's experience. We've settled practically everything (except buying my handphone) and soon next week, we'll be celebrating our 5th Year Anniversary!........ :)
We had a "bash" last nite bcoz we've not been going out the whole week....Had dinner at Swensons and then went to walk around Esplanade to take pictures!!........hehehehehe......
Thanks dear, for "entertaining" my request to take pictures! Love u lots!!!! And thanks for being there for me...Won't know wat to do if I'm without you! *MMMUUUAAACCCKSS!*
Check out our "poses" for the nite!....... - esplanade album -
P/S: Dearie's friend who stays in JB said that there's policemen guarding the area where we got robbed...hopefully, that'll helped! But dunno how long they're gonna stay there though!! And dearie's going into JB today to fill up his tank.....hopefully, all will go smoothly for his trip there! I'm afraid that they'll stop him and question him and won't let him come back!!...cross fingers!...nolah hor??..........
Yesterday was the official "closing" for Sunday's experience. We've settled practically everything (except buying my handphone) and soon next week, we'll be celebrating our 5th Year Anniversary!........ :)
We had a "bash" last nite bcoz we've not been going out the whole week....Had dinner at Swensons and then went to walk around Esplanade to take pictures!!........hehehehehe......
Thanks dear, for "entertaining" my request to take pictures! Love u lots!!!! And thanks for being there for me...Won't know wat to do if I'm without you! *MMMUUUAAACCCKSS!*
Check out our "poses" for the nite!....... - esplanade album -
P/S: Dearie's friend who stays in JB said that there's policemen guarding the area where we got robbed...hopefully, that'll helped! But dunno how long they're gonna stay there though!! And dearie's going into JB today to fill up his tank.....hopefully, all will go smoothly for his trip there! I'm afraid that they'll stop him and question him and won't let him come back!!...cross fingers!...nolah hor??..........
Friday, March 19, 2004
ENDED WITH A BANG!
It's T.G.I.F!!.......and it ended off pretty well!!!.........and NOT juz for me, i think for dearie too!!.....pretty hot, good news coming your way!........
Mom called me up after work and asked if I wanted to follow them to Funan....so I agreed coz then, I'd have a free ride and get to check out my Canon's price there!.....mum went to send her cam for repair while me and dad went to check out the Canon cam....was told that it was out of stock but it was still selling at $580 and will get 64MB free SD card...
So Mom suggested we go to AMK where I was looking at since it is $570 and Dad want to go see how much his hp cost....so off we go.....Went to the hp shop, ask around for Dad's hp and also the T630 WAT A PLEASANT SURPRISE i got when they said that they're selling it at $488 or something (w/o line)!!....WEEEEEEEEE!!!......would definitely consider for upgrade later!!........then, off we went to the camera shop....
There, we've got a pretty gooood salesman who can talk preeety wellll too!........He recommended Fuji FinePix - a 6.0MegaPixel, with 3x Optical Zoom and video recording and can dbl up as a web cam too!!! (yani, can webcam with u soooon, i hope!!)........it's pretty worth it!...BUT the only setback is it's size.....it was a half-hearted purchase...would really lurrrrve the Canon!.....but since they pretty much love this piece of equipment, got no choice mah!......and yup!...got to say lah - it has pretty kewl functions!....so felt really surprised that they bought that for me!!.......i thought we were sharing!!!....and didn't really think that they'd even consider buying one more for me!!..........So, THANKS MUMMY!!!......THANKS DADDY!!!.........
Made me feel really bad leh, for sometimes, treating them "badly"..........hmmmmm............now, will have to think up of what to buy Mom for her birthday on April's Fool!......????????
And juz now, one of the "members in the clan" called and announced that she's getting engaged!!.....AAAAUUUUWWWW!!!!.....very happy for you girl!!....IT'S ABOUT FREAKIN TIME YOU GUYS DO THAT!!......hahhahahahaa......she's actually shivering in her freakin toes at the tot of this "commitment".....but then hor, i really dunno leh y u scared??!.....it's like about time oredi, he waited long enuff and u know, he knows, he's not getting any younger.......so, relaks.....dah kawen kan dah "halal"....hehhehehee........kalau nak buat preparations, aku ada!.....i wanna start and be like Trista - go do some wedding portfolio for myself or something!....at least, can like "copy" ideas and then, getting it at a cheaper rate!!......so niways, CONGRATS to Ms BBQ's-not-my-Thang and partner!!...... Insya-allah sampai ke jinjang pelamin ye.......
SOOOOO LO-MAN-TIC!!!
A romantic script depicting true-life account of two lovers taking the next big step in their life! Names were not disclosed to protect the privacy of the people involved.
SCENE 1
Somewhere out there......
GIRL: When are you marrying me?
BOY: 2005
GIRL: (freaked out!) That's like next year!!!
SCENE 2
Somewhere at East Coast Park....after a debate over engagement and wedding rings!
GIRL: Is that for me? (pointing to a nice box)
BOY: Eeeh!...U very tak tahu malu, u know!..... (took out the box and presented it to girl)
GIRL: (saw wat's inside and went....) AUUUUWWWWW!!!...... (started crying uncontrollably)
BOY: Will you marry me?
GIRL: (still crying!!!too choked up for words)
BOY: I wanted to get down on my knees and proposed but the ground's too wet! :)
GIRL: (still crying but managed to give a peck on the cheeks!)
Guess what's inside the box??!!....
An incomplete artwork of cross-stitch from boy to girl. Sewn at the back of it, is her engagement ring.
It's T.G.I.F!!.......and it ended off pretty well!!!.........and NOT juz for me, i think for dearie too!!.....pretty hot, good news coming your way!........
Mom called me up after work and asked if I wanted to follow them to Funan....so I agreed coz then, I'd have a free ride and get to check out my Canon's price there!.....mum went to send her cam for repair while me and dad went to check out the Canon cam....was told that it was out of stock but it was still selling at $580 and will get 64MB free SD card...
So Mom suggested we go to AMK where I was looking at since it is $570 and Dad want to go see how much his hp cost....so off we go.....Went to the hp shop, ask around for Dad's hp and also the T630 WAT A PLEASANT SURPRISE i got when they said that they're selling it at $488 or something (w/o line)!!....WEEEEEEEEE!!!......would definitely consider for upgrade later!!........then, off we went to the camera shop....
There, we've got a pretty gooood salesman who can talk preeety wellll too!........He recommended Fuji FinePix - a 6.0MegaPixel, with 3x Optical Zoom and video recording and can dbl up as a web cam too!!! (yani, can webcam with u soooon, i hope!!)........it's pretty worth it!...BUT the only setback is it's size.....it was a half-hearted purchase...would really lurrrrve the Canon!.....but since they pretty much love this piece of equipment, got no choice mah!......and yup!...got to say lah - it has pretty kewl functions!....so felt really surprised that they bought that for me!!.......i thought we were sharing!!!....and didn't really think that they'd even consider buying one more for me!!..........So, THANKS MUMMY!!!......THANKS DADDY!!!.........
Made me feel really bad leh, for sometimes, treating them "badly"..........hmmmmm............now, will have to think up of what to buy Mom for her birthday on April's Fool!......????????
And juz now, one of the "members in the clan" called and announced that she's getting engaged!!.....AAAAUUUUWWWW!!!!.....very happy for you girl!!....IT'S ABOUT FREAKIN TIME YOU GUYS DO THAT!!......hahhahahahaa......she's actually shivering in her freakin toes at the tot of this "commitment".....but then hor, i really dunno leh y u scared??!.....it's like about time oredi, he waited long enuff and u know, he knows, he's not getting any younger.......so, relaks.....dah kawen kan dah "halal"....hehhehehee........kalau nak buat preparations, aku ada!.....i wanna start and be like Trista - go do some wedding portfolio for myself or something!....at least, can like "copy" ideas and then, getting it at a cheaper rate!!......so niways, CONGRATS to Ms BBQ's-not-my-Thang and partner!!...... Insya-allah sampai ke jinjang pelamin ye.......
SOOOOO LO-MAN-TIC!!!
A romantic script depicting true-life account of two lovers taking the next big step in their life! Names were not disclosed to protect the privacy of the people involved.
SCENE 1
Somewhere out there......
GIRL: When are you marrying me?
BOY: 2005
GIRL: (freaked out!) That's like next year!!!
SCENE 2
Somewhere at East Coast Park....after a debate over engagement and wedding rings!
GIRL: Is that for me? (pointing to a nice box)
BOY: Eeeh!...U very tak tahu malu, u know!..... (took out the box and presented it to girl)
GIRL: (saw wat's inside and went....) AUUUUWWWWW!!!...... (started crying uncontrollably)
BOY: Will you marry me?
GIRL: (still crying!!!too choked up for words)
BOY: I wanted to get down on my knees and proposed but the ground's too wet! :)
GIRL: (still crying but managed to give a peck on the cheeks!)
Guess what's inside the box??!!....
An incomplete artwork of cross-stitch from boy to girl. Sewn at the back of it, is her engagement ring.
CLAY! CLAY!
I luuurrrrvvveeeeee his singing!!!!!!!......My IDOL!!!..........My absolute singing sensation!!!.......wooooooHOOOOOO!!!!...........he did a great job singing Solitaire yesterday at AMI!!.........weeeeeeee!!......he looked soooo matured now....definitely prefer his look last year....think he needs to go for a hair cut??....hahahha...but he's soooooo cute and lovable!!............mmmmph!!...really missed seeing him on stage and croooon.....woooooo.....was salivating when he was singing!!...hahahhaa.....ewwww!..... :) very happy though yesterday!....really ended off my day on a high, happy note!.........AAAAUUUUUWWW!!!!.........
The results are out and.......LEAH is OUT!!..........almost gave me a heart attack when it was between Jennifer Hudson and her!!.....I think Jennifer should tone down a bit and not oversing!.......after listening to her yesterday, Yup!...i prefer that version of her instead of Wednesday's performance.....Me and Dad almost thought that it was NOT the same song!!.....
So next one to go - plssssssss, plsssssssss let it be John Stevens!!......he's sooooo D.U.L.L!!!.......look at him!.....everyone in the group seemed to be having fun, dancing and singing but he juz can't sing and dance for NUTS!!!....so i'll juz tahan him for one more week and I hope he's OUT!....
I luuurrrrvvveeeeee his singing!!!!!!!......My IDOL!!!..........My absolute singing sensation!!!.......wooooooHOOOOOO!!!!...........he did a great job singing Solitaire yesterday at AMI!!.........weeeeeeee!!......he looked soooo matured now....definitely prefer his look last year....think he needs to go for a hair cut??....hahahha...but he's soooooo cute and lovable!!............mmmmph!!...really missed seeing him on stage and croooon.....woooooo.....was salivating when he was singing!!...hahahhaa.....ewwww!..... :) very happy though yesterday!....really ended off my day on a high, happy note!.........AAAAUUUUUWWW!!!!.........
The results are out and.......LEAH is OUT!!..........almost gave me a heart attack when it was between Jennifer Hudson and her!!.....I think Jennifer should tone down a bit and not oversing!.......after listening to her yesterday, Yup!...i prefer that version of her instead of Wednesday's performance.....Me and Dad almost thought that it was NOT the same song!!.....
So next one to go - plssssssss, plsssssssss let it be John Stevens!!......he's sooooo D.U.L.L!!!.......look at him!.....everyone in the group seemed to be having fun, dancing and singing but he juz can't sing and dance for NUTS!!!....so i'll juz tahan him for one more week and I hope he's OUT!....
Thursday, March 18, 2004
A SAD, SAD, WORLD!
Juz heard from mom juz now that 3 armed Indon men are on the loose in Tekong, after a robbery they did in JB! It's a blessing that Rizan passed his IPPT and can go home today for the next 2 wks! I hope they manage to catch them by then!!...I have total trust in our police force...unlike some other police force! :P
....haiz....wat's happening to the world now? Is it not a safe place anymore? Who can we trust now? Why do man have to stoop sooooo low as to do all these evil intentions on another man? It's a sad, sad, world we're living in now...it's like we've forgotten all the moral values that our parents/teachers/religion have taught us!.....aren't we afraid of GOD, oredi? Is this HIS way of teaching us all a lesson?.....Are our minds and hearts clouded with the "pollution" that surrounds us everyday?
1. Noise/Water/Air Pollution
2. Politic-king Pollution
3. Deceit & Hypocrisy Pollution
4. Pollution of the Evil & Violent
5. Pollution of Greed & Jealousy
Hmmmm.........very sedih seh!.....Also, very sedih is - it's turning out to be a bad, bad week for both me and dearie this week!...it's like "dah jatuh ditimpa tangga lagi!" (direct translation: fall oredi, kenna hit by ladder some more!) My colleague is irritating the HELL out of me!......his workplace is also irritating the HELL out of him and tiring him out COMPLETELY!.....PLUS, someone's trying to sow discord between me and one of my dearest friend, RosmAmaN!!....I'm not trying to be petty....should have expected that this could happen!....but trying to SABO me?!!...PUUUHHHLEEEAAASSSSEEE!!!.........
Putting "You all are C U N T S" in her blog using my nick is utterly CHILDISH!!..........wat do you have against me?! What have i fucking done to you that you have to freaking use my name and sabo me huh?!.....giler ke?!...well, like i said, wateva!!.......after all these, I can't be bothered no more!.....i love my friend and won't say that to her!....If i WANTED to, I'd have said it to her face!.....so juz fuck off and come back ONLY when you GROW UP!!.....
Moving along to more happy thoughts - i can't wait for the results of yesterday's American Idol!!!........I'm guessing John Stevens (though not too confidently, after watching how his school and class mates simply adore him!! But he's simply B.O.R.I.N.G! *yawn*!), LEAH!!!!! (so wat if she's got loads of "fans" at school! She can't sing for NUTS!), Amy Adams/Camille (I really dun want to put down their names but then, i've got to admit, they're the "weaker" ones....) But I've got a strong feeling, Amy Adams would be out first tonite!..... :( Juz like Vanessa Olievero last year...... well, crossing my fingers for LEAH to go out FIRST!....Never mind John Stevens...i think i can tahan him for 1 more week! But the BEST part of the nite is the appearance of CLAY AIKEN!!....woooo-hooooo!!!......CAN'T WAIT!!...CAN'T WAIT!!...seen his latest video clip of "The Way"......oooooh myy!!!........... :) that's gonna be my next song sooooon.....
Juz heard from mom juz now that 3 armed Indon men are on the loose in Tekong, after a robbery they did in JB! It's a blessing that Rizan passed his IPPT and can go home today for the next 2 wks! I hope they manage to catch them by then!!...I have total trust in our police force...unlike some other police force! :P
....haiz....wat's happening to the world now? Is it not a safe place anymore? Who can we trust now? Why do man have to stoop sooooo low as to do all these evil intentions on another man? It's a sad, sad, world we're living in now...it's like we've forgotten all the moral values that our parents/teachers/religion have taught us!.....aren't we afraid of GOD, oredi? Is this HIS way of teaching us all a lesson?.....Are our minds and hearts clouded with the "pollution" that surrounds us everyday?
1. Noise/Water/Air Pollution
2. Politic-king Pollution
3. Deceit & Hypocrisy Pollution
4. Pollution of the Evil & Violent
5. Pollution of Greed & Jealousy
Hmmmm.........very sedih seh!.....Also, very sedih is - it's turning out to be a bad, bad week for both me and dearie this week!...it's like "dah jatuh ditimpa tangga lagi!" (direct translation: fall oredi, kenna hit by ladder some more!) My colleague is irritating the HELL out of me!......his workplace is also irritating the HELL out of him and tiring him out COMPLETELY!.....PLUS, someone's trying to sow discord between me and one of my dearest friend, RosmAmaN!!....I'm not trying to be petty....should have expected that this could happen!....but trying to SABO me?!!...PUUUHHHLEEEAAASSSSEEE!!!.........
Putting "You all are C U N T S" in her blog using my nick is utterly CHILDISH!!..........wat do you have against me?! What have i fucking done to you that you have to freaking use my name and sabo me huh?!.....giler ke?!...well, like i said, wateva!!.......after all these, I can't be bothered no more!.....i love my friend and won't say that to her!....If i WANTED to, I'd have said it to her face!.....so juz fuck off and come back ONLY when you GROW UP!!.....
Moving along to more happy thoughts - i can't wait for the results of yesterday's American Idol!!!........I'm guessing John Stevens (though not too confidently, after watching how his school and class mates simply adore him!! But he's simply B.O.R.I.N.G! *yawn*!), LEAH!!!!! (so wat if she's got loads of "fans" at school! She can't sing for NUTS!), Amy Adams/Camille (I really dun want to put down their names but then, i've got to admit, they're the "weaker" ones....) But I've got a strong feeling, Amy Adams would be out first tonite!..... :( Juz like Vanessa Olievero last year...... well, crossing my fingers for LEAH to go out FIRST!....Never mind John Stevens...i think i can tahan him for 1 more week! But the BEST part of the nite is the appearance of CLAY AIKEN!!....woooo-hooooo!!!......CAN'T WAIT!!...CAN'T WAIT!!...seen his latest video clip of "The Way"......oooooh myy!!!........... :) that's gonna be my next song sooooon.....
Wednesday, March 17, 2004
LESSONS IN LIFE
After the freaky incident on Sunday, I think it had "woke" me up somehow and taught me a few lessons!...
1. NOT to be freakin careless next time.
2. Complacency should not be a policy.
3. If you need to scream (to get things done), SCREAM!!!!
4. Sometimes, being a bitch helps! :)
5. THERAPY, THERAPY, THERAPY!!! (You can do this by talking to your partner or family and a few good friends!)
This blog, for one, is a very goooood form of therapy...it lets me release whatever I feel like saying....crude or not, (sorry if there's soooo many expletives in one entry..hehheheh)......and those dearest around me really helped big time!....thanks all!!.........
I think, though Sunday was a traumatic experience for me, it had made me a stronger person! I'm proud of myself...coz at least now, I know how to stand up for myself! I dunno if you guys ever have problems with your Finance (F) department but it seemed that I always have a problem with mine!!.....
Me: You have not sent me our part-timers' payslips for last month.
F: We've sent it to you on Saturday. You should get it by now.
Me: Can you pls check with Registry if they've sent it out? Or whomever? Coz we don't receive any.
F: Har? It's not our job to go check with Registry.
Me: So????!! Is it my job to check it for you?! You sent it out, you should go find it!
There!....before, I would have gone to find it myself but hell no!......thou shall not be pushed around by them no more coz I've had enuff of these nonsense!!......Why is it that ppl like me, always gets to be pushed around?!?!......Is it because i'm meek, I'm submissive, I'm Miss Goody-2-shoes??!!......fuck it!.......
AaaaaaGGGHH!!!.....weeeelllll......actually, yeslah..hehehehehhehe..I try very hard not to get into confrontations...but now, since i'm in the mooood, I really, really hope that there's this one particular"Bitch in the House", would confront me and ask why is it that I treat her differently from the rest in the office!!......Hahahhahaha!!!......That'd be the BEST day of my life!!.....coz it's burning in my heart soooo much to tell her - "Hey! You noticed!! Well, frankly, I don't like you and I don't see any reason why I should be nice to you!!!".......
Hmmmm....IF ONLY!!..... :) But anyways, haiz.....i'm missing my camera!!.....I wanna buy another camera!!....Guys, if you can find any gooood bargains anywhere, price below $570 with 64MB free SD card, LET ME KNOW!!...
After the freaky incident on Sunday, I think it had "woke" me up somehow and taught me a few lessons!...
1. NOT to be freakin careless next time.
2. Complacency should not be a policy.
3. If you need to scream (to get things done), SCREAM!!!!
4. Sometimes, being a bitch helps! :)
5. THERAPY, THERAPY, THERAPY!!! (You can do this by talking to your partner or family and a few good friends!)
This blog, for one, is a very goooood form of therapy...it lets me release whatever I feel like saying....crude or not, (sorry if there's soooo many expletives in one entry..hehheheh)......and those dearest around me really helped big time!....thanks all!!.........
I think, though Sunday was a traumatic experience for me, it had made me a stronger person! I'm proud of myself...coz at least now, I know how to stand up for myself! I dunno if you guys ever have problems with your Finance (F) department but it seemed that I always have a problem with mine!!.....
Me: You have not sent me our part-timers' payslips for last month.
F: We've sent it to you on Saturday. You should get it by now.
Me: Can you pls check with Registry if they've sent it out? Or whomever? Coz we don't receive any.
F: Har? It's not our job to go check with Registry.
Me: So????!! Is it my job to check it for you?! You sent it out, you should go find it!
There!....before, I would have gone to find it myself but hell no!......thou shall not be pushed around by them no more coz I've had enuff of these nonsense!!......Why is it that ppl like me, always gets to be pushed around?!?!......Is it because i'm meek, I'm submissive, I'm Miss Goody-2-shoes??!!......fuck it!.......
AaaaaaGGGHH!!!.....weeeelllll......actually, yeslah..hehehehehhehe..I try very hard not to get into confrontations...but now, since i'm in the mooood, I really, really hope that there's this one particular"Bitch in the House", would confront me and ask why is it that I treat her differently from the rest in the office!!......Hahahhahaha!!!......That'd be the BEST day of my life!!.....coz it's burning in my heart soooo much to tell her - "Hey! You noticed!! Well, frankly, I don't like you and I don't see any reason why I should be nice to you!!!".......
Hmmmm....IF ONLY!!..... :) But anyways, haiz.....i'm missing my camera!!.....I wanna buy another camera!!....Guys, if you can find any gooood bargains anywhere, price below $570 with 64MB free SD card, LET ME KNOW!!...
Monday, March 15, 2004
A TERRIBLE NITEMARE!!!!!
Wat was a start to a gooood weekend, turned into a terrible, terrible nitemare!!!!........On Saturday, met up with the happening group from SP!......very, very happy......had a mini bbq at Yana's place, talked cock till 12.30am!!........fuuuuyoooh!!......
The next day, Sunday, had to attend a wedding at JB.....so went there.....and the nitemare started along the way to the wedding....My handbag got SNATCHED!!!!.....EVERYTHING inside was gone!!......G.O.N.E!!!..........i was sooooooo scared!!....it felt like we were in the movies!!........Dearie tried chasing the robbers.....even another M'sian bike tried to chase after it....after a while, he juz stopped chasing.........
When we stopped to bike to cool ourselves down, I juz couldn't stop blaming myself for being sooooo stupid as to sling the bag over my shoulders!......Now, our passports, my IC, my wallet, my handphone and EVEN the camera!!!! (Siti, if you're reading this, dun tell Mummy, k?....Wak Yam dunno abt the camera)..............So guys, very sorry!!...All the pictures, even Ayu's moment is gone!!.......
We went to the wedding and informed the parents and brother and quickly head down to the police post....They are very different from Singapore's one ok?!?!...........They were not concerned or bothered abt it at all!!....I wonder wat the fuck the police over there are doing!!.....We heard from his relatives over there that there are a lot of snatch-thefts reported at the same stretch of road oredi!....Apparently, it's like a sort of syndicate or something like that!....AND they're still NOT doing anyting abt it??!!......mcm ciiiiibaaaaiii!!!......
On top of that, we heard that even with the police report, the custom will NOT allow us to go thru unless we give them "coffee $$"!!.......Yah!!....Fuck it!!...as if I'd give any!!!........so we did a half-smart thing....hehehehe........def won't say it here lah!!!........So in the end, we managed to get back to Singapore safely...Did a report to ICA at Woodlands checkpoint and off to face Mum and Dad!...........Initially, Dad was angry but in the end, both of them was relieved that both of us are safe and sound and that's wat matters!!!.....We heard more horrible stories in JB abt these snatch thefts and we're pretty lucky that we were not hurt!!
So today, for the first time in my life, I took urgent leave from work!......And not only that I got to make a scene in public!!........Okie, how dumb can one be when I've oredi informed you that I've lost ALL my stuff? EVERYTHING??!!...Need I spell it out for you, for you to understand what I've been saying all this time?....Granted, you're doing ur job to verify that I am your client of your bank account but fuck!....I've oredi told you umpteem times that I have no cards, no verification ID to let you know that I AM that customer because everything's been stolen!!........So, the last straw came when, she asked the same stupid question - "You really don't have any cards with you, with a picture of you for us to verify that you are Ms Emilia?"......THAT'S IT!....I blew my top and screamed at both women to stop asking me that question because, I dun have any to give them!!.....I should have been more like Yana, I'd bet she'd say "Which part of "I lost EVERYTHING" that you don't understand?!........And one surprising thing was, after I screamed, they did their work of issuing me a new card and pass book and closed my account and opened a new one!!...hahahhaa......I think, the screaming must have jolted them out of their "dream" or something coz they managed to use their brains to asked me some questions to verify that I'm indeed their customer, based on their database!.......bloody morons!!....
So later, we went to settle our other stuff, like my driving licence, IC and our passports!....luckily, the rest went pretty smoothly except for a "hick-up" at the ICA's reception where the lady tried to push us off juz bcoz I dun have an IC!....uuuuurrrrggghhh!!!..........very irritating!!......We had to go thru an "interview" to waive our replacement fee and according to them, this case is reported practically EVERYDAY!!......Apparently, the guy heard the same story (snatch-thefts in JB) everyday!!!....there's also this girl who didn't want to let go of her bag and nearly fell off the bike!...she let go only when the bf told her too!!.....
Like dearie said - the important thing is our safety!...he couldn't imagine if anything had happened to me...like kena dragged or something which I daren't wish to imagine!!!.....But now, I'm traumatised for life i think!!...the first thing that came to my mind when i wake up in the morning was the act of the robbery!.....I juz couldn't shake it off my head...everytime, it was like a replay in the head in slow-motion!......UUUURRRGGGGGHHH!!!.......I really wished the robbers burn in hell BIG TIME!!..........Nabey!!!.......really.....puki-mak dorang!!!!..........Even the bloody police officers there, should rot and burn in HELL!!....wat the fuck are they paid for there??...Are they really doing their work? OR juz sitting down at the police post, taking in the bribery??!!!....If this is happening practically everyday, how come no formal reports or any actions are being taken?!!.......Wat kind of a police force is this??!!......Betul, Mesra and Cepat (or Cekap)? FUCK!!!!............translation : True, Friendly and Fast (or Efficient)......hahhahaa....wat a fucking laugh that motto is!!......go search your conscience and tell yourself if you're really this?!?!......How will M'sia ever be a developed country - wat, Wawasan 2020 (Vision 2020) - when the government or the authorities themselves are actually doing harm to the economy of the country!!
And one more appalling thought!! - to think that these happen in an Islamic country??!!!...HALLLLOOOO!!!!.......We're all brothers and sisters of Islam!.....Irregardless of where we live, Singapore or Malaysia, we're still connected in Islam!...And Islam forbids these acts...it's not halal!....but you're still doing this?!!..Stealing, raping, bribery!.....As-taghfirullahalazim!!.........Only Allah can forgive your sins...but I sure freakin hope you rot in hell or die a slow, painful death!!!......
So guys, pls, plsssss be careful!.....They call the stretch of road - depan pasar borong saputangan or something...this is the stretch going towards Carrefoure, after Pelangi...They snatched while you're walking too!.....so juz BE CAREFUL!!....The BIGGEST mistake we made was not to put my handbag in the box!!...that's bloody idiotic....and an expensive lesson to learn!....but ppl grew stronger and smarter with the mistakes they make...and I wanna thank my dearie for being strong for me when I was weak......Truly, truly see the BEST in you, dear!!......I wouldn't know what I'd do without you!......having to face my parents and going through this together!!.....A blessing in disguise - it has made us closer and stronger together! :) ..... We're stronger if we're together and you know, I know, that we work better as a "team"! So...THANK YOU!!!!................
So my dear frenz, since we're intending to organise an outing to JB to eat, I'm sorry to say that it won't be in the near future!.....if you guys wanna go, go ahead...but I've had enuff!!...the next time I go JB would be to meet my tailor for my baju kurung!....Before, we've heard stories happening in even City Square...but we've never taken them "seriously"....but after wat happened, I dun wanna take anymore chances!....Juz bring the minimal, do your stuffs and come back!!.......
Wat was a start to a gooood weekend, turned into a terrible, terrible nitemare!!!!........On Saturday, met up with the happening group from SP!......very, very happy......had a mini bbq at Yana's place, talked cock till 12.30am!!........fuuuuyoooh!!......
The next day, Sunday, had to attend a wedding at JB.....so went there.....and the nitemare started along the way to the wedding....My handbag got SNATCHED!!!!.....EVERYTHING inside was gone!!......G.O.N.E!!!..........i was sooooooo scared!!....it felt like we were in the movies!!........Dearie tried chasing the robbers.....even another M'sian bike tried to chase after it....after a while, he juz stopped chasing.........
When we stopped to bike to cool ourselves down, I juz couldn't stop blaming myself for being sooooo stupid as to sling the bag over my shoulders!......Now, our passports, my IC, my wallet, my handphone and EVEN the camera!!!! (Siti, if you're reading this, dun tell Mummy, k?....Wak Yam dunno abt the camera)..............So guys, very sorry!!...All the pictures, even Ayu's moment is gone!!.......
We went to the wedding and informed the parents and brother and quickly head down to the police post....They are very different from Singapore's one ok?!?!...........They were not concerned or bothered abt it at all!!....I wonder wat the fuck the police over there are doing!!.....We heard from his relatives over there that there are a lot of snatch-thefts reported at the same stretch of road oredi!....Apparently, it's like a sort of syndicate or something like that!....AND they're still NOT doing anyting abt it??!!......mcm ciiiiibaaaaiii!!!......
On top of that, we heard that even with the police report, the custom will NOT allow us to go thru unless we give them "coffee $$"!!.......Yah!!....Fuck it!!...as if I'd give any!!!........so we did a half-smart thing....hehehehe........def won't say it here lah!!!........So in the end, we managed to get back to Singapore safely...Did a report to ICA at Woodlands checkpoint and off to face Mum and Dad!...........Initially, Dad was angry but in the end, both of them was relieved that both of us are safe and sound and that's wat matters!!!.....We heard more horrible stories in JB abt these snatch thefts and we're pretty lucky that we were not hurt!!
So today, for the first time in my life, I took urgent leave from work!......And not only that I got to make a scene in public!!........Okie, how dumb can one be when I've oredi informed you that I've lost ALL my stuff? EVERYTHING??!!...Need I spell it out for you, for you to understand what I've been saying all this time?....Granted, you're doing ur job to verify that I am your client of your bank account but fuck!....I've oredi told you umpteem times that I have no cards, no verification ID to let you know that I AM that customer because everything's been stolen!!........So, the last straw came when, she asked the same stupid question - "You really don't have any cards with you, with a picture of you for us to verify that you are Ms Emilia?"......THAT'S IT!....I blew my top and screamed at both women to stop asking me that question because, I dun have any to give them!!.....I should have been more like Yana, I'd bet she'd say "Which part of "I lost EVERYTHING" that you don't understand?!........And one surprising thing was, after I screamed, they did their work of issuing me a new card and pass book and closed my account and opened a new one!!...hahahhaa......I think, the screaming must have jolted them out of their "dream" or something coz they managed to use their brains to asked me some questions to verify that I'm indeed their customer, based on their database!.......bloody morons!!....
So later, we went to settle our other stuff, like my driving licence, IC and our passports!....luckily, the rest went pretty smoothly except for a "hick-up" at the ICA's reception where the lady tried to push us off juz bcoz I dun have an IC!....uuuuurrrrggghhh!!!..........very irritating!!......We had to go thru an "interview" to waive our replacement fee and according to them, this case is reported practically EVERYDAY!!......Apparently, the guy heard the same story (snatch-thefts in JB) everyday!!!....there's also this girl who didn't want to let go of her bag and nearly fell off the bike!...she let go only when the bf told her too!!.....
Like dearie said - the important thing is our safety!...he couldn't imagine if anything had happened to me...like kena dragged or something which I daren't wish to imagine!!!.....But now, I'm traumatised for life i think!!...the first thing that came to my mind when i wake up in the morning was the act of the robbery!.....I juz couldn't shake it off my head...everytime, it was like a replay in the head in slow-motion!......UUUURRRGGGGGHHH!!!.......I really wished the robbers burn in hell BIG TIME!!..........Nabey!!!.......really.....puki-mak dorang!!!!..........Even the bloody police officers there, should rot and burn in HELL!!....wat the fuck are they paid for there??...Are they really doing their work? OR juz sitting down at the police post, taking in the bribery??!!!....If this is happening practically everyday, how come no formal reports or any actions are being taken?!!.......Wat kind of a police force is this??!!......Betul, Mesra and Cepat (or Cekap)? FUCK!!!!............translation : True, Friendly and Fast (or Efficient)......hahhahaa....wat a fucking laugh that motto is!!......go search your conscience and tell yourself if you're really this?!?!......How will M'sia ever be a developed country - wat, Wawasan 2020 (Vision 2020) - when the government or the authorities themselves are actually doing harm to the economy of the country!!
And one more appalling thought!! - to think that these happen in an Islamic country??!!!...HALLLLOOOO!!!!.......We're all brothers and sisters of Islam!.....Irregardless of where we live, Singapore or Malaysia, we're still connected in Islam!...And Islam forbids these acts...it's not halal!....but you're still doing this?!!..Stealing, raping, bribery!.....As-taghfirullahalazim!!.........Only Allah can forgive your sins...but I sure freakin hope you rot in hell or die a slow, painful death!!!......
So guys, pls, plsssss be careful!.....They call the stretch of road - depan pasar borong saputangan or something...this is the stretch going towards Carrefoure, after Pelangi...They snatched while you're walking too!.....so juz BE CAREFUL!!....The BIGGEST mistake we made was not to put my handbag in the box!!...that's bloody idiotic....and an expensive lesson to learn!....but ppl grew stronger and smarter with the mistakes they make...and I wanna thank my dearie for being strong for me when I was weak......Truly, truly see the BEST in you, dear!!......I wouldn't know what I'd do without you!......having to face my parents and going through this together!!.....A blessing in disguise - it has made us closer and stronger together! :) ..... We're stronger if we're together and you know, I know, that we work better as a "team"! So...THANK YOU!!!!................
So my dear frenz, since we're intending to organise an outing to JB to eat, I'm sorry to say that it won't be in the near future!.....if you guys wanna go, go ahead...but I've had enuff!!...the next time I go JB would be to meet my tailor for my baju kurung!....Before, we've heard stories happening in even City Square...but we've never taken them "seriously"....but after wat happened, I dun wanna take anymore chances!....Juz bring the minimal, do your stuffs and come back!!.......
Friday, March 12, 2004
oooooh!!!......Yeah........bring it ON!!.........MORE of the Uncut, Uncensored and Untalented of the American Idol plssssssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....lurrrrrve this special edition!!...it's such a laugh!!.......hahhahahaa.......Sooooo refreshing, such a stress reliever!!.......
Though William Hung is passe, but I've got to give it up to lil Willie!....he's one brave dude!.........i think physically, he's a bit off, both me and dearie give him our greatest sympathy...but to know that he's going thru this life-changing experience with his amount of talent, truly makes him one exceptionally, phenomenal, young man....!!......
And I think he's not the only phenomenal one in the house!......i think the army girl deserves to be in the top 12 instead of Leah!!.....the judges make a darn big mistake in not taking her in!!...she's got a very goooood voice and I love her personality!!.......Even Big Girls Rock did a fine job in that original song of hers!.....which was cool by the way!.......Too bad they didn't get to go in......maybe next time yah?......
Okie, I know!....i know.......I'm cranky.......this month's "red dot" is such an emotional roller-coaster!...........Been on this hella-of-a-ride for a few days now......uuuuuuurghhh!!!.....need it to be over sooooon, plsssssssssssss!!!!!.... I can't do this anymore!!............Juz like rite now.....i was on the high rite after the show and now, *poof!*........i'm off to drah drah land.....*boo!hoo!hoo!*........feelin soooooo sad!!.........feelin sooooo vulnerable!.....why is this happening to me??!!!!!!!!!!!......................
Though William Hung is passe, but I've got to give it up to lil Willie!....he's one brave dude!.........i think physically, he's a bit off, both me and dearie give him our greatest sympathy...but to know that he's going thru this life-changing experience with his amount of talent, truly makes him one exceptionally, phenomenal, young man....!!......
And I think he's not the only phenomenal one in the house!......i think the army girl deserves to be in the top 12 instead of Leah!!.....the judges make a darn big mistake in not taking her in!!...she's got a very goooood voice and I love her personality!!.......Even Big Girls Rock did a fine job in that original song of hers!.....which was cool by the way!.......Too bad they didn't get to go in......maybe next time yah?......
Okie, I know!....i know.......I'm cranky.......this month's "red dot" is such an emotional roller-coaster!...........Been on this hella-of-a-ride for a few days now......uuuuuuurghhh!!!.....need it to be over sooooon, plsssssssssssss!!!!!.... I can't do this anymore!!............Juz like rite now.....i was on the high rite after the show and now, *poof!*........i'm off to drah drah land.....*boo!hoo!hoo!*........feelin soooooo sad!!.........feelin sooooo vulnerable!.....why is this happening to me??!!!!!!!!!!!......................
I have to vent my disappointment!!!.....Shi-Ann! - You're one swine, cibai-kiah and down-rite hypocrite bitch!!........You said you can't stand Jerri and neither could I...juz when I was supporting you for seeing that in her, you switched your "strategy" and vote out Colby?!!.......Uggggh!!....this is juz sooooo freakin irritating!!!......you're as irritating as Jerri!!!..........SERIOUSLY!!....you went as low as Jerri!!.......
Jerri, Jerri, Jerri.....i really hope you don't win it girl!....you're really freakin lazy and you're using your "sweet" girl act on Lex...and you think you're sexy!!...........LOOK at yourself first, lady! - You've got NOTHING!.....
Jerri, Jerri, Jerri.....i really hope you don't win it girl!....you're really freakin lazy and you're using your "sweet" girl act on Lex...and you think you're sexy!!...........LOOK at yourself first, lady! - You've got NOTHING!.....
Bisikan bayu mengingatkan segala dosa yang aku lakukan
Kesalku masih tak berakhir
Hinggakan tiada kesudahan
Apakah masih hatimu berdendam?
Maafkanlah aku, kasih...
Masih dapat kurasakan kehangatan cintamu padaku
Usah biarkan diriku menderita dalam sendirian
Tak mampu ku tahan gelora di jiwa
Hanyalah kau di dalam hatiku ini
Kurindukan tawamu dan kurindukan belaianmu
Masih dapat aku rasakan getaran menyentuh jiwaku...
Found the above poem, along with a letter whilst digging through my pile of old letters and cards from friends and some "other" people.....I know tis is disturbing, but the above really disturbed (and moved me at the same time)me.....again......well, how can one forget one's first love, aye?.....yup!...he's my first love.....Didn't wanna share but had to let it out.....
I supposed, I'm feeling kinda sad myself today....and that's y feeling mushy and all..........haiz.......it's that time of the year again!...And I'm cold.............and lonely!....But for the sake of love, i shall persevere and will get thru this....it'll be over before I know it!............
...........It's juz not a good day today!......tot I could get hold of the T630!....was sooooo looking forward to it!....and it's going at such a freakin gooooood price!!!........but hell no!...got stumped in the face when the guy told me that I have to complete my contract first (which is like in freakin October!!) before I can purchase that fon at wateva price they're offering!!!....i hope my fon's gonna be a gooood baby till Oct and NOT give me any problems till then!.....
.............Went to Banquet to eat their Jap food....was sooooo looking forward to eating that too!!....and guess wat?!?!....I've had to wait for a good 20mins (or more) before I get my food!!!!.......I was freakin fumin mad!!!!....If it's NOT because I've paid for the food, I would have cancelled the bloody order!!......MORONS!.......the thing that made me really mad was the fact that the girl was "acting cute" and flirting with the guy (these are the workers of the stall)!!!....PLUS she had to sashay her back to the kitchen everytime - - toa and fro, to and fro....!!!....HALLLLLOOOO???!!!!...ppl are waiting for their food??!........
............And to top the nite off, Paula had to choose Leah to be in the finals!!!!!!..........that's a freakin cibai-niac thing to do!!...................soooooooo pissed with that decision!!!.......Suzy Vulaca (sang I Will Survive) should've entered the finals!!!.......aaaaaarrrrrgggghhh!!!............wat in the world was she thinking?!?!....does she love that song tooo much to even care who actually sings that song??!!......she picked Trenyce last year to enter the finals in their Wildcard show....but that was fine coz Trenyce did a fine job singing that song!....But Leah...........she's disturbing!!.....chills went down my spine hearing her sing!!.....that's not the good kinda chills but the bad ones that left an almost numb sensation in the ears....
Hope to end off the week with a "BANG" as promised by TCS 5 tomorrow!!......can't actually wait for my two favourite shows, back-to-back!.......weeeeeeeee!!!.......
Kesalku masih tak berakhir
Hinggakan tiada kesudahan
Apakah masih hatimu berdendam?
Maafkanlah aku, kasih...
Masih dapat kurasakan kehangatan cintamu padaku
Usah biarkan diriku menderita dalam sendirian
Tak mampu ku tahan gelora di jiwa
Hanyalah kau di dalam hatiku ini
Kurindukan tawamu dan kurindukan belaianmu
Masih dapat aku rasakan getaran menyentuh jiwaku...
Found the above poem, along with a letter whilst digging through my pile of old letters and cards from friends and some "other" people.....I know tis is disturbing, but the above really disturbed (and moved me at the same time)me.....again......well, how can one forget one's first love, aye?.....yup!...he's my first love.....Didn't wanna share but had to let it out.....
I supposed, I'm feeling kinda sad myself today....and that's y feeling mushy and all..........haiz.......it's that time of the year again!...And I'm cold.............and lonely!....But for the sake of love, i shall persevere and will get thru this....it'll be over before I know it!............
...........It's juz not a good day today!......tot I could get hold of the T630!....was sooooo looking forward to it!....and it's going at such a freakin gooooood price!!!........but hell no!...got stumped in the face when the guy told me that I have to complete my contract first (which is like in freakin October!!) before I can purchase that fon at wateva price they're offering!!!....i hope my fon's gonna be a gooood baby till Oct and NOT give me any problems till then!.....
.............Went to Banquet to eat their Jap food....was sooooo looking forward to eating that too!!....and guess wat?!?!....I've had to wait for a good 20mins (or more) before I get my food!!!!.......I was freakin fumin mad!!!!....If it's NOT because I've paid for the food, I would have cancelled the bloody order!!......MORONS!.......the thing that made me really mad was the fact that the girl was "acting cute" and flirting with the guy (these are the workers of the stall)!!!....PLUS she had to sashay her back to the kitchen everytime - - toa and fro, to and fro....!!!....HALLLLLOOOO???!!!!...ppl are waiting for their food??!........
............And to top the nite off, Paula had to choose Leah to be in the finals!!!!!!..........that's a freakin cibai-niac thing to do!!...................soooooooo pissed with that decision!!!.......Suzy Vulaca (sang I Will Survive) should've entered the finals!!!.......aaaaaarrrrrgggghhh!!!............wat in the world was she thinking?!?!....does she love that song tooo much to even care who actually sings that song??!!......she picked Trenyce last year to enter the finals in their Wildcard show....but that was fine coz Trenyce did a fine job singing that song!....But Leah...........she's disturbing!!.....chills went down my spine hearing her sing!!.....that's not the good kinda chills but the bad ones that left an almost numb sensation in the ears....
Hope to end off the week with a "BANG" as promised by TCS 5 tomorrow!!......can't actually wait for my two favourite shows, back-to-back!.......weeeeeeeee!!!.......
Wednesday, March 10, 2004
BIG BANG WEEK!
Yesterday was a "goody, goody" (jgn fikir goodie bag eh, naz...) day for my dearie!.....he got good comments from his supervisors on his productivity rate but actually, that doesn't make a difference if his jobscope have changed without any increment in pay or allowances!......so fuck it!!............
I can't wait for the following 3 days!!!......today's AMI3 as usual...tomorrow's the results and on Friday, Survivor starts at 8.30pm! followed by AMI3 again with their Uncut, Uncensored and Untalented version of the AMI3 participants!!!......I'm not soooo hyped up abt William Hung's performance coz he's sooooo passe...but i wanna watch the rest!!.....must be a real laugh!!!!.........AND i can't wait for the Mar 18 episode of AMI3 coz my idol - CLAY AIKEN is gonna be in the show!!!....woooooo HOOOO!!!......
FEELING DISTURBED LATELY?
I've been feeling disturbed lately.....I got to know someone who's personality really, really leave a bad taste in the "mouth" kinda thing.....Let's call this person Materialistic Person (MP)......I've never had a friend who's sooooo materialistic!!!!......ALWAYS bragging and putting a $$ sign to everything!........it's sooooo unimaginable that this person exists!........i dun think i wish to know how much you spend on something or what "branded" stuff your partner gives you and how much it is or for that matter, how MUCH fuckin "material$$" you are given in your whole lifetime!!!........U need not show off or brag because it's plain distasteful!..........and it just goes to show, juz what kind of a person you are! Luckily MP is an acquaintance and not one whom I meet everyday or regularly... *PHEW!*
Sorry, folks for my above outburst or unpleasant code of writing!....i'm not in the best of mood....maybe bcoz of my upset belly and on-and-off PMS!.....but oh welll.....
Yesterday was a "goody, goody" (jgn fikir goodie bag eh, naz...) day for my dearie!.....he got good comments from his supervisors on his productivity rate but actually, that doesn't make a difference if his jobscope have changed without any increment in pay or allowances!......so fuck it!!............
I can't wait for the following 3 days!!!......today's AMI3 as usual...tomorrow's the results and on Friday, Survivor starts at 8.30pm! followed by AMI3 again with their Uncut, Uncensored and Untalented version of the AMI3 participants!!!......I'm not soooo hyped up abt William Hung's performance coz he's sooooo passe...but i wanna watch the rest!!.....must be a real laugh!!!!.........AND i can't wait for the Mar 18 episode of AMI3 coz my idol - CLAY AIKEN is gonna be in the show!!!....woooooo HOOOO!!!......
FEELING DISTURBED LATELY?
I've been feeling disturbed lately.....I got to know someone who's personality really, really leave a bad taste in the "mouth" kinda thing.....Let's call this person Materialistic Person (MP)......I've never had a friend who's sooooo materialistic!!!!......ALWAYS bragging and putting a $$ sign to everything!........it's sooooo unimaginable that this person exists!........i dun think i wish to know how much you spend on something or what "branded" stuff your partner gives you and how much it is or for that matter, how MUCH fuckin "material$$" you are given in your whole lifetime!!!........U need not show off or brag because it's plain distasteful!..........and it just goes to show, juz what kind of a person you are! Luckily MP is an acquaintance and not one whom I meet everyday or regularly... *PHEW!*
Sorry, folks for my above outburst or unpleasant code of writing!....i'm not in the best of mood....maybe bcoz of my upset belly and on-and-off PMS!.....but oh welll.....
Monday, March 08, 2004
I've not been updating...yeah...i know.....coz been giving chance to my lil bro......let him use it while he's home over the weekend....
SICK FISH!!
It's "cheeks" got infected and it's like eating into it's skin....this side of the eye is also twice larger than the other side of the eye!!........poor, poor fishie!!.....Die, fishie, die.....we're willing to let you go.....
Kesian!......i look at my lo-han!!......my fish!!.....booo-hooo.....i wonder wat happened to him?!?!......he started "deteriorating" ever since his "friend" died!....we had 2 fishes in the tank initially....but Dad decided to throw it away seeing how frequently dirty the fish tank was!.....but then, can't bear to let it go....so it died a not-so natural death i think coz his "cheeks" got infected somehow...so i think that's how he died...juz like my current sick fish!!......tulah!.....org kata - "if near, very smelly, very far, very wangi!"........well......maybe that's wat happen lor....it's missing it's "friend" and somehow, no mood to "play around" with me finger either....hence his health deteriorated and he caught on the infection as well........haaaaizzzz.......it's now, only staying at the top of the water....i think it's waiting for it's time to die too.......very, very sad.......
Welll....i'm like a sick fish too!!......feelin worried abt something.....i shan't say...you shall know it if it happens but pls do pray that it won't!..... :(
RAINING!....BIG FAT DROPS!
It has been raining the WHOLE day!!.....wat a wonderful, wonderful day it would have been if i'd been at home sleeping or juz plain lazing around!......happy akak!!.......but it sure was a cooool, cooool, day today!....brrrrr......
I wonder how dearie's going home today...it must have been a bad day for him today...he got transferred out from his department to a very shitty dept!!....it juz ain't fair to him!!.....i wonder wat kind of shitty management gives that kinda shit! to their employees?!!.....well......ain't all management a shitty bunch?!....that's y, in a hierarchy, you(only referring to ppl below, like me) have to bear looking at their asses but if you're smart, might as well kiss their asses!!.......fuck asses!!!.........
Okie.....must remember, DUN be in an irritable mood today!!.......will try to control my hormones tonite!!.....My PMS will juz have to wait!! *cross fingers!*
I juz hope he won't be catching any flu or something...with all these viral infection or virus in the air.......you never know wat you're suffering from!!...it's soooo scary!!......got this friend who has caught something and the doctor dun seem to know wat is it that she's suffering from.....she's got to go to clinic to get her blood check practically every other day....she's already sooooo skinny!!.......AIYOH!!.....i hope she gets well!....miss talking to her lah!............to this friend - "GET WELL SOOOOON!!".............really wish you a really speedy recovery, yah??.......MISS YOU LOTS!!....and to all my other friends, eat rite, take proper vitamin pills and etc.........do keep yourself healthy!!... -> that goes to me too! :)
SICK FISH!!
It's "cheeks" got infected and it's like eating into it's skin....this side of the eye is also twice larger than the other side of the eye!!........poor, poor fishie!!.....Die, fishie, die.....we're willing to let you go.....
Kesian!......i look at my lo-han!!......my fish!!.....booo-hooo.....i wonder wat happened to him?!?!......he started "deteriorating" ever since his "friend" died!....we had 2 fishes in the tank initially....but Dad decided to throw it away seeing how frequently dirty the fish tank was!.....but then, can't bear to let it go....so it died a not-so natural death i think coz his "cheeks" got infected somehow...so i think that's how he died...juz like my current sick fish!!......tulah!.....org kata - "if near, very smelly, very far, very wangi!"........well......maybe that's wat happen lor....it's missing it's "friend" and somehow, no mood to "play around" with me finger either....hence his health deteriorated and he caught on the infection as well........haaaaizzzz.......it's now, only staying at the top of the water....i think it's waiting for it's time to die too.......very, very sad.......
Welll....i'm like a sick fish too!!......feelin worried abt something.....i shan't say...you shall know it if it happens but pls do pray that it won't!..... :(
RAINING!....BIG FAT DROPS!
It has been raining the WHOLE day!!.....wat a wonderful, wonderful day it would have been if i'd been at home sleeping or juz plain lazing around!......happy akak!!.......but it sure was a cooool, cooool, day today!....brrrrr......
I wonder how dearie's going home today...it must have been a bad day for him today...he got transferred out from his department to a very shitty dept!!....it juz ain't fair to him!!.....i wonder wat kind of shitty management gives that kinda shit! to their employees?!!.....well......ain't all management a shitty bunch?!....that's y, in a hierarchy, you(only referring to ppl below, like me) have to bear looking at their asses but if you're smart, might as well kiss their asses!!.......fuck asses!!!.........
Okie.....must remember, DUN be in an irritable mood today!!.......will try to control my hormones tonite!!.....My PMS will juz have to wait!! *cross fingers!*
I juz hope he won't be catching any flu or something...with all these viral infection or virus in the air.......you never know wat you're suffering from!!...it's soooo scary!!......got this friend who has caught something and the doctor dun seem to know wat is it that she's suffering from.....she's got to go to clinic to get her blood check practically every other day....she's already sooooo skinny!!.......AIYOH!!.....i hope she gets well!....miss talking to her lah!............to this friend - "GET WELL SOOOOON!!".............really wish you a really speedy recovery, yah??.......MISS YOU LOTS!!....and to all my other friends, eat rite, take proper vitamin pills and etc.........do keep yourself healthy!!... -> that goes to me too! :)
Thursday, March 04, 2004
RIZAN'S BACKKK!!!!!
Ooooh!!....my lil bro's back!!!.........soooo missed him!!.......and he looks sooooo "black"!!...and BOTAK!!..cam cannot believe like that!.....he never had botak hair before!...it's juz sooooo weird!!..but niways, here's a before and after!
A before picture and after picture....hmmmm....but heck! at least he's fine!!...... :) that's all that matters ain't it??.....and the last picture, that's DAD!....trying to be his corny self!....hahahahhaa.......
Ooooh!!....my lil bro's back!!!.........soooo missed him!!.......and he looks sooooo "black"!!...and BOTAK!!..cam cannot believe like that!.....he never had botak hair before!...it's juz sooooo weird!!..but niways, here's a before and after!
A before picture and after picture....hmmmm....but heck! at least he's fine!!...... :) that's all that matters ain't it??.....and the last picture, that's DAD!....trying to be his corny self!....hahahahhaa.......
TERUBAT RINDUKU!!.....
Like after a loooooong while, finally got to meet my baby!!!......hehehhehee....missed him soooo much lah!!..........so we spent the whole day together and went out to eat....thought of eating at Habib at Marina South; and for the second time, it was closed!!!....anyone has any idea when and what time they opened on weekdays?!!!...we went there on a weekday before after 7pm and it was also closed!!....is it opened only on weekends??!
So we thought wanna go eat at Breeks AMK. Made our way there and he realised "ooops!!....this road is AYE Jurong and not AYE (CTE)!"...so had to make a big round and at last ended up at West Coast food centre instead!!!........At the end of the trip there, my butt was SORE!!!.........but luckily the food was worth the trip!!.....
Images for the day....
Like after a loooooong while, finally got to meet my baby!!!......hehehhehee....missed him soooo much lah!!..........so we spent the whole day together and went out to eat....thought of eating at Habib at Marina South; and for the second time, it was closed!!!....anyone has any idea when and what time they opened on weekdays?!!!...we went there on a weekday before after 7pm and it was also closed!!....is it opened only on weekends??!
So we thought wanna go eat at Breeks AMK. Made our way there and he realised "ooops!!....this road is AYE Jurong and not AYE (CTE)!"...so had to make a big round and at last ended up at West Coast food centre instead!!!........At the end of the trip there, my butt was SORE!!!.........but luckily the food was worth the trip!!.....
Images for the day....
Tuesday, March 02, 2004
I'M BACK!!!.......
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!.........................i'm back!....glad to be back coz i'm missing my baby!!!!..........can't wait to meet him tomorrow...today, i'm sooooo freaking exhausted!!.......juz feel like sleeping but can't sleep coz not talked to my baby for the nite yet....waiting for his call now.....
But niways, all in all, had a good trip!!......shopping, shopping and shopping!!.............actually, not soooo much shopping but the things that i wanted to buy, and bought - MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!!!.....first stop in KL - KLCC!!......Bobbi Brown of course!!....spent RM175 on their eye liner and powder and I've got free lipstick and lip gloss!!.....weeeeeeee!!......Nasty Naz & Izy, I think u guys should go chg eye-liners!!!...theirs is marvelous!!!............
Next on the shopping list - lace for my baju kurung....and went like everywhere in Lorong Masjid India but couldn't find something I like...at last, went to this boutique and saw this freakily nice lace - french lace.....love it soooo much but guess how much it cost - RM175/m!!!....crazy or wat?!!...so had to settle for something less but still had to bargain like mad and got it t RM80/m!!....Mom said - "NVM, buy it since you like it!....later, in Singapore, you still won't be able to find it....etc...etc..."......so heck, bought it!!.........still thinking shucks!!.....y the hell did I buy that!!!...luckily only need 2m!!....
Finally, SHOES!!.....saw Vincci (equiv to our VNC) and they were having a sale!!.......went straight to their bargain corner and guess wat??!!!!.......bought freaking 4 pairs of shoes for myself!!....hahahhahahaa....the BEST shopping experience for shoes I have so far and freak ass!! - all were only for S$10 per pair!!!!.......very *in Dr Yap's most ah-lian accent* nabey!!!!.......hahahahhhaha.......Pretty sure Izy's gonna go as crazy as me if she's there!!..it's only $10!!!...and heavens!! - can get our freakin huge size!!!
So Izy, u want any of the above pairs of shoes?...let me know, ya?...I'm pretty sure u can fit into them! ;)
In between shopping for my stuff, mom went to buy stuff for her Haj's preparation and went to this boutique recommended by my aunt...and she went CRAZY in there!!.....hahahhaha....the jubah they had were very cooling, of the right size and costing about $60 ea, i think....not tooo sure if that's cheap or not...*of course, i know, you can get something cheaper in Geylang* but I think, Hejab Iran is selling their collection much more expensive, aye??...and from what I heard from a colleague, it's not really for our size, the broad-shouldered ones...but niways, yeah, she bought like one piece from each design!....Dad bought a shirt for himself and me, ngecek one blouse for myself!...think Izy will love it!....hhahahahhaa......they also have this design of the tudung - you juz have to slide it on your head. They have slit the tudung in two so all you have to do is criss-cross them and pin them up!....very ez!!.....and the material is the drapy kind so it falls nicely!......
OOOOOH!!........got to tell you abt this bakery they have - Secret Recipe!!! - very, very nice cakes they have!!.....must try their brownie!! - wooooo!!hooo!!.............the BEST so far!.........Dad had mango cake - pheeee weeet! - that's nice too! (But not as nice as me brownie!!)...hehehhee......and it's soooo cheap!!....we spent S$12 for 2 cakes, 1 cafe latte and 1 ice blended!......so if you've not tried this there, go try it!...it's halal!....Dun worry!!..... :)
So yup!...that's abt it for my days in KL!.....shop and eat...that's all we do!!...hahhahhaa......feeling soooo freakin fat now!!....booo-hooo!!......will go for my "training" program ASAP!!.....hahhahahaaa............Tee, dun smirk!....will go Ok?!...
Niways, pictures of my trip are here....didn't take a lot of pictures coz like dunno wat to take and every trip, we have shopping bags to carry so like malas to take......
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!.........................i'm back!....glad to be back coz i'm missing my baby!!!!..........can't wait to meet him tomorrow...today, i'm sooooo freaking exhausted!!.......juz feel like sleeping but can't sleep coz not talked to my baby for the nite yet....waiting for his call now.....
But niways, all in all, had a good trip!!......shopping, shopping and shopping!!.............actually, not soooo much shopping but the things that i wanted to buy, and bought - MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!!!.....first stop in KL - KLCC!!......Bobbi Brown of course!!....spent RM175 on their eye liner and powder and I've got free lipstick and lip gloss!!.....weeeeeeee!!......Nasty Naz & Izy, I think u guys should go chg eye-liners!!!...theirs is marvelous!!!............
Next on the shopping list - lace for my baju kurung....and went like everywhere in Lorong Masjid India but couldn't find something I like...at last, went to this boutique and saw this freakily nice lace - french lace.....love it soooo much but guess how much it cost - RM175/m!!!....crazy or wat?!!...so had to settle for something less but still had to bargain like mad and got it t RM80/m!!....Mom said - "NVM, buy it since you like it!....later, in Singapore, you still won't be able to find it....etc...etc..."......so heck, bought it!!.........still thinking shucks!!.....y the hell did I buy that!!!...luckily only need 2m!!....
Finally, SHOES!!.....saw Vincci (equiv to our VNC) and they were having a sale!!.......went straight to their bargain corner and guess wat??!!!!.......bought freaking 4 pairs of shoes for myself!!....hahahhahahaa....the BEST shopping experience for shoes I have so far and freak ass!! - all were only for S$10 per pair!!!!.......very *in Dr Yap's most ah-lian accent* nabey!!!!.......hahahahhhaha.......Pretty sure Izy's gonna go as crazy as me if she's there!!..it's only $10!!!...and heavens!! - can get our freakin huge size!!!
So Izy, u want any of the above pairs of shoes?...let me know, ya?...I'm pretty sure u can fit into them! ;)
In between shopping for my stuff, mom went to buy stuff for her Haj's preparation and went to this boutique recommended by my aunt...and she went CRAZY in there!!.....hahahhaha....the jubah they had were very cooling, of the right size and costing about $60 ea, i think....not tooo sure if that's cheap or not...*of course, i know, you can get something cheaper in Geylang* but I think, Hejab Iran is selling their collection much more expensive, aye??...and from what I heard from a colleague, it's not really for our size, the broad-shouldered ones...but niways, yeah, she bought like one piece from each design!....Dad bought a shirt for himself and me, ngecek one blouse for myself!...think Izy will love it!....hhahahahhaa......they also have this design of the tudung - you juz have to slide it on your head. They have slit the tudung in two so all you have to do is criss-cross them and pin them up!....very ez!!.....and the material is the drapy kind so it falls nicely!......
OOOOOH!!........got to tell you abt this bakery they have - Secret Recipe!!! - very, very nice cakes they have!!.....must try their brownie!! - wooooo!!hooo!!.............the BEST so far!.........Dad had mango cake - pheeee weeet! - that's nice too! (But not as nice as me brownie!!)...hehehhee......and it's soooo cheap!!....we spent S$12 for 2 cakes, 1 cafe latte and 1 ice blended!......so if you've not tried this there, go try it!...it's halal!....Dun worry!!..... :)
So yup!...that's abt it for my days in KL!.....shop and eat...that's all we do!!...hahhahhaa......feeling soooo freakin fat now!!....booo-hooo!!......will go for my "training" program ASAP!!.....hahhahahaaa............Tee, dun smirk!....will go Ok?!...
Niways, pictures of my trip are here....didn't take a lot of pictures coz like dunno wat to take and every trip, we have shopping bags to carry so like malas to take......
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