MARATHON
I'm pretty nervous today.. we're bringing lil' Eshan to the clinic later in the afternoon to be circumcised.. jittery.. jittery.. as if he knows, he's been cranky since last nite!.. urrrgghh!....

i feel like it's been a marathon.. we did all we need to do on him before the supposed pantang period of 40days!.. hah!... and hopefully, the ring on his cuckoo bird will drop off before his 1mth's bday! ;) the only thing we haven't done is his aqeqah.. anyone knows where we can do it??....

oh!.. we brought him out last weekend.. not to go jln2 lah.. juz to the in-laws.. we went home abt 11pm and from maghrib till 11, he didn't sleep prolly coz of the ruckus the kids in the hse were making!! by the time we reach home, he was dead tired!...

we couldn't help but laff when we saw how tired he was!... and we tot he'd def not wake us up in the middle of the nite. NOT!!... :p

over the weekend, baby Rayyan and baby Alya (together with parents of coz!) came by to visit... and ho! ho! ho!... wat a shocker when we see this lil babe!...

u may not be able to visualise how big baby Rayyan is, but trust me, he IS!!... my god!... he gave me a shock!.. and u def need strong, big arms to carry this Michelin baby around!... see his thunder thighs?!... Daddy kept saying that he won't be surprised if Eshan be his size by the 3rd mth!... gdness gracious!... hope not!.. i dun think i can bring him around alone if that's the case!!!....

but i must say, my boy has definitely grown taller and bigger.. i've got to have support ev'time i feed him now.. i can't wait to weigh him.. i hope the polyclinic do that on his 1mth visit eh?.. hmmm....

ME! ME! ME!
i really dooooo need some "MEEEEE" time!!.... i soooo totally agree with Joy.. ever since the babe came along, i've not been "taking care" of myself.. i think my eye-brows need a gd trimming, my feet are crying out for mercy, my body needs a good scrub, my face needs it's dose of "cleaning" and my hair - well, it's curlier than ever now!... :(

btw, i've lost 12kg to date but i think i need to lose another 6-10kg to fit back into my jeans!! yes!... i shuddered thinking that i actually put on close to 20kg the past 9mths!!... aaaaagghh!!.. my butt has definitely grown side-ways coz that's where all my bottoms get stuck at! and soooooo, i badly need to do a bit of bottoms shopping and i dun intend to wait out the 30-40days of pantang.. if nothing or no one gets in the way, i'm gg out this weekend! ... hehehhee...

between now and tml, i better get some sleep time coz the babe has been waking up every 2hrs for his feed!.. he's a growing kid afterall and that cheeks getting plumpier and juicier by the day!... ;)

oh! oh! oh!... at looooong last that mamak is GONE!.. GONE!... GONE!!.... i'm sooooo glad it wasn't Lakisha!... but i'm pretty surprise that Blake was in bottom 3!... when i saw Blake with Sanjaya i was pretty damn sure Sanjaya was safe!... kwang.. kwang.. kwang.. so, can i safely say that the finals would be Melinda and Jordin?.. or is it still too soooon to say?.. hmmm..... if these 2 are in the finals, it'd be a real fight!!.... i can't wait!!

BOTAK!
It felt like it's been awhile since i last updated!... kwang.. kwang.. juz no time to do it lah... :( niways, my lil' one have been shaven!... his now a baldie... hehehhe....

when it happened, i actually felt like crying coz i really do lurve his long, straight hair... yes!... believe it or not, my prayers seemed to be answered.. he's got straight hair!!.... but i'm pretty sure, after the shave, it won't be straight any longer... boooo hooooo!!!!.....

anyways, the Ustaz started off by reciting some prayers and giving him honey to suck on..

throughout the "ceremony" Eshan was quiet only whimpered and cried a bit when the Ustaz move him... whereas i was actually crying inside seeing him being shaved!!.. but i know this is done for a good cause and that that hair needs to be shaved for a fuller, healthier hair for the future.. ;)

now, my lil' boy look like this..

rounder and more tembam!!.... he's been cranky ever since the shave.. i think he knows and he doesn't like it! furthermoreeeeeee... it doesn't help that the grandparents are home and pampering him by carrying him around!!.... god help me when he wakes up!!.... had my first taste of it last nite.. i practically had to cuddle him before he goes to sleep!!... grrrrrr....

after the cukur rambut ceremony, we went to check on his jaundice and al-hamdulillah, it had gone down to 87!.. yeay!... no more trips to the polyclinic!!... :) it's actually not so much of making a trip down to the polyclinic.. it's the taking of blood at the same spot ev'time he's there that ached me...

oh!.. before he was shaven, i made sure we took pictures of him bathing.. and boy does he hate to bathe!... prolly coz we always wake him up juz to bathe!.. hehehehe....

he'll always cry for help everytime that butt hit the waters!... don't tell me he dun like the waters coz i do!.. and i intend to coach him to swim once he's ready!!....

he'll quiet down after the bath.. thank god!... aaaaah.. he looks soooo good with his hair!...

so the next milestone is his circumcision.. we intend to do it soon.. as suggested by the Ustaz, anytime before baby is 40days is afdal... so, hopefully, we'll get a date by then..

btw, if that mamak Sanjaya is still in after tml, i seriously doubt America will find the next American Idol!... i do question why on earth the judges put him through in the first place?... not like he's got the looks to start with!... grrrrr.....

MY BOY..
He now wants to hold the bottle ev'time we feed him with one!... soooo clever anak mama satu nie... hehhehe...

oh!.. his pusat (umbilical cord) also pops out yesterday in the wee morning!!.... we were excited coz we were counting down the days when that smelly thing will actually pop out!... supposedly to pop on Day 7 but his pop on Day 9!.. but plsssss eh... dat dun make him a stubborn babe!.... (another one of those old wives' tale)

and as he grows, he simply refused to be binded!... everytime we try to wrap him up, he'll swiggle his way giving us all kinds of faces and poses - whilst still asleep!... sheesh!... he juz wanna be free!!.... most times we give up but at nite, he will be forced to be binded!... hhehehehe... but by the time he wakes up for his feed, he's free!... goodness gracious!...

his jaundice has reduced... but still not below the 100 mark.. so we still have gotta go back to the polyclinic to get him checked!.. hmmmmm..... oh!... can someone also help tell me how i can make my baby drink plain water?.. he simply refuse to drink more than 2 sips of water!... :( sungguh menggeramkan!

oh!.. before i end off this entry can someone explain to me WHY that mamak is still in idol?... he's gonna make it to top 5 lah... i'm pretty sure... and i dun quite understand (or i'm simply in denial) why the judges rave Blake's vocals... his performance is good but his vocals are pretty lousy... like i told Dearest, i always feel like i'm out of breath whenever i see him perform.. i think it's coz of his senget (crooked) mouth whenever he sings lah... do u guys notice it?... weird!...

GONE DOWN..
we brought him to the doc again today and his jaundice has gone down... al-hamdulillah... but my lil' one is now not pooping as regularly.... maybe coz he's not getting my breastmilk as much as before!...

thanks all for the valuable info!!... I'll start on breastfeeding him again.. Yati, i tak suka tomato!!...but i'll try to take in a bit lah for his sake.. Cik Nor, Effa, i dun think i've got ginger in my diet.. but will definitely avoid them lah... ;) thank u all again!! :D

YELLOW HERE TO STAY..
went to the polyclinic earlier and boy!... was that an eye-opener for me... i shall not elaborate on the experience.. i juz thank god i went there for the babe and not for myself!...

niways, the jaundice level went higher!... urrrggh!.. and the doc said that i may have to balanced out my breastfeeding and formula milk or give more of the latter coz it may be due to my breast milk!!... sheeeesh!..

after what he went thru the past few days like this...

the level doubled instead of reduced!... :( and in this picture, he really look like one Somalia kid siah!... kwang.. kwang.. kwang... niways, will stop breastfeeding him for awhile till his jaundice clears..

oh!.. have i told u how much i lurrrve to see him sleep??..

he'll make these funny faces while asleep... there's a lot more expressions but being the unprofessional camerawoman-me, i dun have my camera with me all the time lah...

and this picture was taken juz today after the doctor's visit..

oh!.. can i juz pinch and gigit his cheeks?!!!!.... i sure didn't know my baby have such chubby cheeks!.... must be the camera angle lah!....

btw, wanna say a special thanks to makcik Zanna & soon-to-be hubby Maric for dropping by to visit... very touched siak!... all the way from Jurong Ext!!.... ;)

very nice to see you and catch up with you... cannot wait to attend ur grandeur wedding Zanna!... hhehehehe... eh!.. but before u have that grand wedding, need to do allt he prep work NOW leh!... hehehehe... :p

ESHAN ADUKA
Introducing our precious lil' one..

Eshan - in God's grace; worthy

Born: Tues, 3 Apr 07

Weighed in at 2.75kg, 42cm tall

it's pronounced as E-shh-an.. NOT Es-Han eh..

It was truly an experience entering motherhood... but i'm very proud of myself.. for a woman with a very low level threshold for pain, i manage to go through the birth process without the help of the epidural!... ;) but i can tell ya, i was whimpering, crying, begging for mercy and screaming my lungs out from start to finish...

i was warded on Mon nite at 10.30pm.. was excited, happy and nervous at the tot of receiving my son the very next day!... ;) def had to take a last shot of my pregnant self... now, looking back, i really dun have such a big tummy afterall!... hahahhaa....

anyways, the doc induced me at nite with a pill... he said he's not worried abt my gate but he's worried abt my driveway now.. hmmm... had very bad cramps throughout the nite but the nurse assured me that it'll go away and i juz need to tahan.. and i did coz i didn't wanna give birth in the middle of the nite w/o Dearest by my side - knowing him and his very lack of "hearing" when he's asleep!...

but the pain really lessen but was still lingering in the morning.. at 8.30am, i got wheeled into the labour ward... did the nex.. and was very embarassed when the nurse actually shaved me down there... *squirms* the doc came in.. poked me around and pop the water bag!... he left with a bit of a disturbing look on his face!... grrrr.... and i was put on drip.. that's when the nitemare began!....

in summary, the pain was really like having menstrual cramps only thousand times more painful and my back felt like it will disconnect anytime soon!... while still at labour ward enduring the pain, i told Dearest, "i think i dun want another one after this..."

fast forward a bit.. i got the laffing gas which didn't freakin work by the way.. asked for the painkiller - worked for a teeny weeny bit but didn't freakin work too!... but at the peak of the labour, i remembered thinking, i want the epidural! i even want a caesarian coz i really cannot tahan the pain anymore!! and to make matters worst, when the desire to push was intense, my gynae was still not there yet to receive my babe!...

i had to push but tahan a bit for a few minutes before the gynae arrive... i was already screaming my lungs out ev'time i push but had to tahan!.... and the mid-wife's not helping asking me not to scream like that!... urrrrgghh!!.. i feel like screaming back at her and giving her the F word!... my gawd!... the audacity!...

luckily Dearest was more supportive... he was there all the way... didn't say anything "wrong" to make me wanna punch him or anything like that... *muacks!*.. u're the greatest Dear!!... ;) when the gynae came and was ready, i only did 3 pushes and pop! Eshan was out!!..... screaming his cute lil lungs out!... ehhehhee.....

all i can say is - RELIEVE - tat's the ultimate feeling... it was like a release long awaited... oh!.. the pulling of placenta was the exact same feeling of the popping out of the babe!... hahahhaa.... i tot i was having twins!... waaahahhaha....

anyways, after the whole ordeal, only then did my gynae tell me that my pelvic bone is small. I can only deliver up to a 3kilo babe.. anything more, i'd have to go thru caesarian.. so, luckily my boy is only 2.75kg!.. any bigger, under the knife i'll go!... :(

During his first day in the world, he was always in this position:

we hardly hear him cry.. the nyai and yai who's going to be away for their holiday trip on that very day didn't really get to see him with his eyes wide open...

he's been a darl so far... very easy to take care of... and we're sooooo lurrrving every minute being with him... we can't stop smooching him!!.... he's now curious with lights... and he look sooooo cute ev'time we on the blinking lights on his playpen!.. hehehhee...

now, my only problem is, i'm not lactating yet... he's been sucking an "empty vessel" but i've been asked to keep giving him my teats.. so, i did juz that... he'll suck till he sleeps.. but of coz, he gets formula milk later lah... he'll be soooo hungry if not!.... i'm wondering when i'll start producing my milk!... it's irritating coz my boy is not given the BEST milk yet!... hmph!!...

oh!.. before i forget, thanks to all those who's wished and prayed for our safe journey... for more pictures of the last few days... here they are.. ;)

Dear Blog Readers,

It's time for my lil' babe to see the world.. the doc have told me that he'll be out by hook or by crook by tml...

i'll be induced tonite.. hopefully, all goes well and i'll get to deliver him the normal way... insya-allah, i'll be back with pictures of us and my "ordeal"...

from now till then, your prayers are most appreciated... ;)

Yours sincerely,
Soon-to-be Mama E

COUNTING DOWN..
i'm still not over the fact that i may be delivering as early as mid next week! :( knowing tat i have to deliver next week, is like counting down to death... yeah.. i know it's not a good comparison.. but that's the kinda feeling... coz i want it to be more of a surprise - like oh! my waterbag burst!... not wistfully, idling my time away knowing that on this date, i'll be admitted waiting to deliver!... :(

and it's also stressing me to keep making sure that the babe is moving!!... ev'time i notice that he's not, i'll knock/shake my tummy, to wake the babe!... freaky me! kecian budak tu nak tido pun takleh!

anyways, will be on MC tml... i guess my gynae will tell me tml when that date is!... like ev'body around me is saying - go exercise after delivery!.. urrrrgghh!!!... i'm sure gonna get that from ev'body after this lor!.... since i'm a high-risk for high blood!!!...... .grrrrr....

ok... for the record.. i'm a late bloomer as usual.. hehhee... i only manage to catch up with the Prison Break phenomenon only recently!... but heck!.. better late than never, rite?.. anyways, i have to say this!!..... Wentworth has gotta have one of the best-looking eyes i've ever seen!!.... looking into his eyes is like looking into the depths of his soul!.. and i kid u not!.. i'm sooooo in lurrrrve with his eyes... ev'time i watch him, i'll comment to Dearest that i hope our son has his eyes and his genius brains!.... and this time, Dearest cannot disagree coz Scoffield is a genius!.. and he can't deny that his eyes are piercing and well, mersmerising!.. hehehhee... ;)

so, my dear son, i'll be watching Prison Break the next few days up to your delivery juz for a chance for you to have some sort of resemblance to that certain Mr Scoffield... hehhee.... ;)