emiliAduka - this is our now..

AT THE BRINK of DEATH
u know how when one is at the brink of death, one tend to repent and start doing good deeds and all?... i believe that if you get to find out that that u're dying, u are given the very, very last chance to reflect on your past behaviour and try to repay your "sins" and make amends...

i'm not saying that this person (TP) that i'm talking abt is dying but definitely TP's system is getting all haywired and the stomach's been cut up over and over again.. TP's juz been diagnosed with yet another "bad news" and I tot to myself.. poor TP! - been suffering alone.. juz when the dust is settling, another storm is brewing!

but at the same time, i strongly feel that this is just one of God's funny way to make us wake up and smell the roses!... it's a sign for us to reflect on our past deeds.. and i really tot TP would change for the better after all that TP's done!... but NO lor!... TP's still the same.. is it the drug that seemed to have clouded TP's senses or tat personality IS actually TP that has laid dormant for years and years and now - after god knows how many years - it has erupted into a full-blown active volcano? hmmmm...

it's juz soooo sad that this is happening... where was that once nice TP that i first met, the one i respected?.. how i wish i could see someone "fuck" her world.. i know, i sound very unsympathetic and probably evil too - after all tat TP's gone through... but i cannot take it when a friend is the brunt of her cruelty! And the worst thing of all, there's NOTHING anyone could do!... or probably DON'T wanna do!... out of sympathy? perhaps. but it ain't fair if someone else have to take in all that shit!..

so, my friend, don't worry.. our time will come - when your storm comes and hit TP - we'll sit back and enjoy the 'drama' unfolds!

God forgive me for this very seemingly 'wrong' entry..
it's wrong.
i know.
to be cynically talking abt a 'sick' person.
but i'm just here to vent my pent up frustration..
it's been way too long to tahan any longer.

p/s: the entry's been purposely toned down pretty much to keep it vague on the identity of TP. so hint! hint! Friends, pls dun ask who's TP.. ;)